YouStoleMyHeart.

mixture of feelings,but feeling positive

Thursday2:23:00 PM

well, it has been days since i came back from tioman. a fun trip though din get to go out to haf the exact sun tanning i wanted and all the sea sports and stuff. because xuebing was sick, havin high fever tat me and suxin (sharing he queen size bed wid her) haf to take turns to take care of her. well, i din really take care of her except i wake up like 5 or 6 in the morning and let suxin who had take care of her thru out the night to rest. den i will keep askin xuebing drink up, ask her change clothing,change towel. While suxin really put in great effort in helpin xuebing wipe off the sweat and change towel and all. i felt damn guilty bcos of tat too. during the day me and suxin will take turn to take nap to take care of her but i slept more!!! :x cos i was falling sick to. den i keep forcing myself to drink up and bath to prevent it from happening. den the best is i din fall sick, suxin was falling sick due to lack of sleep. :( den end up suxin keep sleeping.. den as xuebing starts to get beta,i started to go out. went to play volleyball, and end up gettin cut by coral den went to swimming pool, den hit by ball.

what's it like to spend my bday oversea.. bad. my friends used volleyball to hit me 19times. giving me blue black and i miss my boyfriend so much.haf to talk to him n phone every night. den when i return, i dash into his hug man. really miss him.

all those who return from tioman fell sick. of cos including me.. tryin to get well now.. fever come and go. my running nose is like open tap, ughhh. everyone, get well soon~

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when i came back to s'pore, my boyfriend broke the news that he'll be entering army in less den a month. i stoned. well, to me it has always been a good thing for guys to enter army. i always feel army is the period when boys turn into men. i'm happy for deardear to receive the letter of acknowledgement. jus din expect it is like so fast. the mixture of feelings caught me right into it. how do i put it. i know his fear, worries and everything. we talk about it before. jus that when it really happen, we don know how to face it. i oso got my fear, my worries.. but we are confident about each other. that's the key. all our fear and worries had been put behind since the night we had our heart to heart talk again. we trust each other. and know there cant be anyone beta suit us den ourselves alr.so we decided to jus treat it as a normal thing, while we still can joke about it and stuff. take it light and not face it like once he enter everything sure change. we cant do anything oso wat. it's like no matter how fearful we are of his entry to army, he still got to go in no matter wat. to face it using all those negative feelings. why not see the bright sight where it means we're one step closer to our future. the future we always wanted to haf each other hand in hand. (:

i know it's quite immature of me to think tis way. but i rather hold on to tis childish thinkings and wait for him whole heartedly.deardear, i'm countings down to 5 years,(:

sage

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