YouStoleMyHeart.

mixture of feelings,but feeling positive

Thursday2:23:00 PM

well, it has been days since i came back from tioman. a fun trip though din get to go out to haf the exact sun tanning i wanted and all the sea sports and stuff. because xuebing was sick, havin high fever tat me and suxin (sharing he queen size bed wid her) haf to take turns to take care of her. well, i din really take care of her except i wake up like 5 or 6 in the morning and let suxin who had take care of her thru out the night to rest. den i will keep askin xuebing drink up, ask her change clothing,change towel. While suxin really put in great effort in helpin xuebing wipe off the sweat and change towel and all. i felt damn guilty bcos of tat too. during the day me and suxin will take turn to take nap to take care of her but i slept more!!! :x cos i was falling sick to. den i keep forcing myself to drink up and bath to prevent it from happening. den the best is i din fall sick, suxin was falling sick due to lack of sleep. :( den end up suxin keep sleeping.. den as xuebing starts to get beta,i started to go out. went to play volleyball, and end up gettin cut by coral den went to swimming pool, den hit by ball.

what's it like to spend my bday oversea.. bad. my friends used volleyball to hit me 19times. giving me blue black and i miss my boyfriend so much.haf to talk to him n phone every night. den when i return, i dash into his hug man. really miss him.

all those who return from tioman fell sick. of cos including me.. tryin to get well now.. fever come and go. my running nose is like open tap, ughhh. everyone, get well soon~

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when i came back to s'pore, my boyfriend broke the news that he'll be entering army in less den a month. i stoned. well, to me it has always been a good thing for guys to enter army. i always feel army is the period when boys turn into men. i'm happy for deardear to receive the letter of acknowledgement. jus din expect it is like so fast. the mixture of feelings caught me right into it. how do i put it. i know his fear, worries and everything. we talk about it before. jus that when it really happen, we don know how to face it. i oso got my fear, my worries.. but we are confident about each other. that's the key. all our fear and worries had been put behind since the night we had our heart to heart talk again. we trust each other. and know there cant be anyone beta suit us den ourselves alr.so we decided to jus treat it as a normal thing, while we still can joke about it and stuff. take it light and not face it like once he enter everything sure change. we cant do anything oso wat. it's like no matter how fearful we are of his entry to army, he still got to go in no matter wat. to face it using all those negative feelings. why not see the bright sight where it means we're one step closer to our future. the future we always wanted to haf each other hand in hand. (:

i know it's quite immature of me to think tis way. but i rather hold on to tis childish thinkings and wait for him whole heartedly.deardear, i'm countings down to 5 years,(:

sage

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i am very loved.(:

Sunday9:54:00 PM

i really felt the love for me from people who love me.(:

super touched by my boyfriend especially.

it's not the present he bought for me but the effort behind everything he did.

he know i like stitch. he bought a big doll stitch for me. he made a puzzle for me and bought/made a cake from icing room for me. he even brought me to ice skating, another sweet little reason is when i'm falling he can hug me prevent me from fallin. HAHA!

he is really filling down about my trip bcos tis means my 1st bday actual day celebration wont be tgt wid him.i felt damn bad. really bad but i cant back out. also he is gonna haf his TP on tues but i'll be oversea.. hmmm at first i really wanted to give up my trip to stay in s'pore but it will mean abandoning my clique that had been thru alot wid me the past 2 and a half year, wasting money and feeling guilty. den he ask me to go..i felt like i'm a real bad gf. but he explain to me sayin i planned the trip way b4 i get tgt wid him. there isnt any reason i abandon my friends moreover tis might even be the last time i go oversea wid my clique b4 i grad.. i felt super touched by wat he say. baby i love you x 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

had a nice fam dinner jus not(: a very nice and cosy one. haha. love everyone!!!

sage

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nice day(:

Tuesday10:13:00 PM

haha! went to baby's hse today. before that went to amk hub ntuc bought the ingredient for baby's and his brother lunch. took train and bus ( i never lose my way!!! ). when i reach lakeside, i gave them a call say:" wash up! i'm reaching in 5mins, muahahahaha!" they were stunt.

cooked chili maggie wid hotdog and lunchen meat and veg noodle for them(: nice. haha den baby slept while i watch percy jackson and the lightning theif again.heez. when my show ends, we went bowling wid his bro. HAHA! super fun can! (: they had a challenge betting who will win, loser will need to tidy and clean the hse for next week. den baby suddenly turn to me say if i can win him, he'll clean my hse. he feels he'll win since it was jus my 3rd time playin bowling. DEN, I WON. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. he was like cursing say i got beginner's luck. :D

den we had dinner wid their mum.chit chat along and had a lovely session gossiping about baby and his bro. LOL. den went to sheng shiong to buy their drinks to be stored.

1.though today actual plan was to go tortise farm at chinese garden, but din go cos i saw baby sleeping din wan disturb him. 2.den we werent suppose to meet his mum for dinner. 3. suppose to send me home b4 8 since my hse is very far from his. but we still enjoy our day very very much. (:

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my new word for the day: ciao

Sunday11:02:00 PM

ytd i gave baby our 3rd month present in advance. our 1st couple ring i choose.. not very ex.. but it's the thot tat count isnt it? and den we went for kaiyuan dage's chalet to celebrate his bday in advance wid aaron and jody sweetie. AND once again learnt my lesson.. sigh. i got drunk again. made baby worry about me. felt damn bad.he got to hold me up ask my jie look after me.which gave my jie a shock lols.

why i say i learnt my lesson cos i haf bad hangover tis morning and had fever later. sigh. baby came to find me at my hse. so funny. my mum like him so much. haha! keep talkin to him and ask why he keep his hair so long and stuff. even my jie oso talk to him alot. den we show off who hagen love more. tat small sneaky traitor like baby more. LOL. hmm. den before he left he say ciao. den i stun.don know wat he say. haha. den he say wah you very chinese leh. ciao is bye.. den i say i only know adios.. haha.

had a sleepy whole day. keep sleeping.. super sleepyhead.can help to replenish back the lost of sleep the week b4 i guess.(:

baby told me something really touched my heart.shall not share it here later he blush again(: but i can tell you u're feel the sweetness right from bottom of ur heart when u hear wat he say. cos tat's wat i'm feeling right now.:D

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lost.

7:06:00 PM

i feel so bad. i lost the ring my dear gave me. lost it some where at home. sigh. he told me it's okay but it aint okay at all. i feel so uncomfortable and insecure wid the ring not on my left fourth finger.

roundround, i'm so sorry i lost the ring. i really cant find it. my mum and sis say probably my cat ate it. sigh. i don know how..

busy wid my fyp this coming week because presentation would be on wed.. a 20 weightage preliminary presentation. thurs will haf gems test in the morning and another shipping biz test in the noon. :( fri would be auxiliary machinary test. like wtf. who say poly is slack. den YOG holiday would begin.

this coming YOG holiday wont be of much holiday. really need to work to earn money. why am i so broke i oso don know.. sigh. i oso wan accompany my dearest during this holiday.i feel like splitting myself into 5. cos i oso need to study during this holiday. argh.

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