YouStoleMyHeart.

moodswing:(

Thursday10:47:00 PM

i hate myself for having mood swing.

sage

busy

Tuesday8:48:00 PM

2 weeks into school reopen. i'm so busy. really stressed up with my school work. the math is killing me. just took a break from another 13 qns of engineering maths 2. oh my i feel like fainting. cant remember how i survived last year engineering math 1. Coming along with the practicals, lectures, tutorials and sleepiness. I can feel my head bursting. I struggled to stay awake during practical. D: well, i must work hard. i want to work hard and score well. alright. getting back into my studies.

friends, a group of people that will cheer you up, give you support, make you smile, listen to your misery and worries.

i'm lucky to have all my friends.

i'm sage.(:

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meeting ur old friends(:

Sunday1:31:00 PM

ytd talk to a long time friend. nv expect will ever talk to him again! (: talk to him on fb den msn n den we text each other. we talk about our past. so funny.talk about last time when we were young wat stupid little stuff we did.(: den we meet up for KOI. treat him cos he cycled all the walk to amk to meet me. den walk back to my hse area to drink n chat. lol! we actually meet up at 8 plus we sit there till 12plus. hahaha. tat's how long we actually drink there cup of large KOI. :D i enjoyed talkin to him. cos it has been like since sec2 we last talk to each other. the way we knew each other wasnt some way normal ppl would expect. haha!

we knew each other bcos of our bro n sis. haha! they bring us out for little outings n den we met.(: den the last time we met was actually not a good one. i rmb he refuse to give me his no. cos he using prepaid card, wan save the prepaid card money. den i actually rmb tat. tat's the best. LOL. tat shows how petty i am i guess. hahah

shannon! don know whether you will see tis post but ytd was a good one! (: enjoyed meetin ya! cya soon since we're same skool. and and and! i wont let u grow again! cos i'm not holdin grudge about tat incident alr! xD i'll grow taller! muahahah

sage

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argh

Thursday2:05:00 PM

it really is a diasater trying to organise one single night outing. wonder how my friend always organise. some don wan tis some don wan tat. den wat now. sigh. a qns without solution. how to solve.

ytd talk to my bro on msn. told him everything. one part of it. i felt relief at least i now don haf to feel so guilty about not tellin him some things. but once i told him, i felt like exposed. like being pushed into the sun without umbrella. clown without make ups.

maybe it's time to jus tone down abit. cool down b4 startin again.

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow. maybe goin rebel if i'm not wrong. anyway oso meetin oliver for a drink. it'll be my 2nd time drinking wid him after tat ipoh trip. miss tat hot cousin of mine! :D

sage

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good start?

Wednesday11:26:00 AM

i had quite a good start of the day by having a packet of food on my desk, the uncle tat help to clean the desk actually bought me breakfast.(:

Past few days was kind of disaster, am sick, still sick, and can't seems to have enough rest. then heard some breaking news by my group of girlfriends.

Days are passing so fast that my ITP will be ending in like 2 days time. I am kind of upset by that fact. I really enjoyed my time here, learnt lot of stuff that i know i can never learn in school. 6 weeks have to become memory alr. Not the present tense but past tense.

How much can i rmb 10 years down the road. Will i even rmb i once work 6weeks for GulfOilMarine? :(

sigh.

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I will let go,

they say, letting go is also a form of liking..

I will learn to like someone using the right way.

I grew up in such environment,

be that i am always the one letting go.

this time round would be the same...

i believe it would be that difficult, i've gave up so many things before too.

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We should learn to let go of some stuff before you fall even deeper.

Moreover the fact is, when you realise you ain't even worth, or you can't even be compared with at all.

sage

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quote

Monday5:31:00 PM

I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt... but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run..

i read this sentence in some page it struck me n i pause for a moment to think.. am i doing that to myself now.sage

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my thankyou letter

11:27:00 AM

i am very busy right now. but decided to take a break from the tonnes of work waiting for me to finish and update my lonely blog.

i should be considered one of the lucky one. cos not many people can meet friends tat they can really pour out their worries and happiness to each other. but i met quite a few.(: really caring people tat i nv thot i would meet.

first was my group of gfs( bing, suxin, ros, charlene) . (: i really love them for loving me! hehe. * u all ar, prank me once more, i really gonna kick ur butts, make me worry for nth! * haha love watchin movie or haf dinner n haf some drinks or dessert at some place. (: it's really sweet.

den comes my newly acknowledge 2 big bro,kaiyuan&weekiat,along wid another friend of mine,derrick. (: the 3 are like a group of super nice n sentimental guys! muahah. though got bully me oso ar, but they protect me too! ppl i can talk thru out the night till i blur blur fell asleep. LOL.

den comes the little sister debbie! love dancing n talkin to her!(: she's a super duper cute gal!!!! another blur gal like bing bing's character! we say alr wan meet up go club tgt~(:

den i got best friends like isaac, reynold & chenjie. people i can jus call when i am super down or happy. they often share my joy n worries!

den i haf some friends, though not tat kind very close, but they are those when i see them i still haf topics to talk about kind.(:

i considered myself really lucky to know them. really, really.

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Thursday12:24:00 PM

i browse thru my fotos albums, look for my friends i used to take lots of fotos n had them in my life. tears drops. i realise i'm someone tat once cling on to some things, n i'll haf a hard time lettin go. i kept crying. i really miss my 'friends'. why is it so. sigh.

in the past, i hated pink. cos i think pink is a soft colour. doesnt suit me. since when i started to accept tis colour n realise it's kinda sweet. since when? since when.

ever since i met tis gal from a cca gathering. she's not a crazy pink lover. but she jus has lots of pinky stuff. she's someone i used to describe as a rose. so beautiful, independent but full of thorns. anyone tries go near might be pricked. but if u're daring enough n don mind pain. mayb you can try goin near her. be sincere, be truthful. don mind tat she might leave you anytime once she feels she's burdening you. you can be her very good friend. really closed, like a phone call 12 am at night, we go out for a bubble tea n a stroll thru the park. haf a hearty chat.share lots of secrets, exchange some dirty little thots and laugh,smile like there's no tmr.a call, we go for a jog, exercise or register sundown marathon tgt. go haf a prata at thomson tgt. i rmb cryin alot, drinkin alot, when i know she's leaving skool for a beta future, a path she choose might look tough but i know she'll enjoy n love, n no more contact wid her. she'll be very busy, very busy enjoyin her new life. i knew there'll be a change in the friendship i called. i really trusted her, i knew all along she's someone unpredictable. so near you yet you can nv predict what'll she do next. tat's her very charming part. where i love yet hated the most. you jus cant do anything to stop her from leaving. i really miss this friend alot. really really. but i knew, this friendship had expired like milk. if i try to bring it back, it's jus cause me more misery.cos deep down i know she's good, far too good n unreachable.she's fast, always movin in a very fast pace where i like things to move slow. i had difficulty catchin up. she's beautiful, so beautiful. i feel inferior standin beside her yet, i always had tis low resistance against beautiful ppl. she's challenging, so challenging. i had to keep changing n challenging the impossible to be on par wid her. which i actually love doin. i used her as a target, a goal. someday i wan to be like her, not copy her or be exactly her but, she's a role model. i learnt alot from her. really alot. i believe if i'm a guy, i would long fall for her. cos she's really charming.

no one is perfect, so is she. she of cos has her own flaw. but she can cover her flaw flawlessly. you know it's a flaw, but she'll do something make tat flaw seems... so beautiful.

woah, i said so much about her. i feel like it's like i fell for her. actually i don know. mayb i did admire her n even love her before for who she was n is. but deep inside, i understand how things changed n part, drifted n will nv be the same again.

sage

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