YouStoleMyHeart.

Friday6:14:00 PM

what am i doing?

what are you doing , xueling?

what the hell am i doing to myself?

to tell the truth i have no idea.

i keep asking myself why i still feel so sad when someone scold me? i thought i would have been used to it. having those sarcasm told face to face, been a temper venting point. it should have been nothing to me, isn't it? i should have got used to it long long time ago. i shouldn't have been the chatter box perhaps. being the clown that think of ways to try to please everybody, but actually pissing them off.i should just learn to shut up n don't comment.cause the comments given,to them, are just rubbish. passing comments you said unintentionally are just craps.making them pissed off. No one takes it to heart anyway, why bother speaking up in the first place. waste my own saliva, my effort thinking way to phrase it properly, trying to please them.perhaps i shouldn't have exist, this heart breaking little fact to me might be happy news to some others. make their life easier. i thought if only i treat them the way i want them to treat me, i will be happier, they might be happier. but it's just crap. deep in me long knew, there ain't such stuff. no matter how good you treat the person, the person won't be able to treat you as well.cos they tends to take you for granted or maybe you don weight a gram in their heart. life ain't fair. i knew it long ago. never mind, it's no longer important. i will learn to just leave with what i am left with, my little pride i'm still left with, and learn to shut up don't give comments.

sage

when a lion falls for a cow, 28 days.

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