frustrations are killing me soon.

i'm jus mad n easily angered by almost everything

i'm tired of tis kind of life.

how i wish everything can pause for a moment

things goin at tis pace are suffocating me.

exams around the corner

never ending house chores to be done

scoldings and backstabbin and gossips& rumours.

what is goin on?

can anyone pls explain the rules n regulations to me?

i don know how to play along wid this game call LIFE.

i don need to be the millionaire or haf a filthy rich husband

i want simple life.

i don need n don wan to go thru ups n downs to enhance anything.

too much of tis up n downs are tiring.

my weak heart n brain cant take it.

how i wish life can be more simple.

human can be more simple.

tired.

actually feelin kinda down this few days. don really haf the cny mood plus sprain my wrist. hm i wan peace in my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i nv ever felt so tired of my skool life before. nv before. cant find anyone to talk to when i really need.mayb it's syptoms showin time to learn to be independent. to grow up n think logically. i'll try to cope wid it den.

eh, i feel tat things happenin around me are kinda ridiculous. backstabbin around n lies n all.. i cant fight against it. oso don know how to cope wid it. i cant say tat i nv lie or wat. i'm human too. i cant go against it if there is the need to. i can say human instinct ba.mab my fault too but. yap. i wont lie here at least.

i nv claim credit for anything. and i'm not happy about how u phrase ur words.mayb is jus a casual remark from u, but it means tat u tot about it.it cross ur mind tat's way it came out tat way. pls. i seriously din. i really did contribute to the project as well, about how the lecturer rate it is not in my control. not to say me u oso cant control it..

wow. so long nv blog alr. ha been really bz these days. got to do things till mid night n wake up early. haiyo. okay one by one.

1st i haf adopted 2 4 weeks old kittens, hagen & dus. they are super cute. although they are one of the ' things' tat make me haf to wake up early morning to feed them and all. but feel contented. they're like my babies. (: so cute.

2nd thing is chinese new year is approaching..... had to help my dad at his shop again. once a year. it's a wow thing. damn bz. after skool haf to rush down to help and burn my weekend in those packin of "bak kwa" the chinese bbq pork. hmm.. family biz. no choice.. some more it's worth it la..

3rd thing is my dajie away from s'pore. had to do double hse chore plus go dad shop help. tat's killin.

had a kinda long day..hm went to skool early for preparation for presentation.thought would be early man, but in the end still late. me yenru and jamond sat at concourse do our project. LOl. yenru super funny.. she keep scoldin some1. hmm den after tat got a guy wearin 'ancient white chinese wushu' shirt tuck in wid long black pants came in n sat opposite us . which make us laugh till mark say we very mean. den we rush to lesson. had our presentation. eh. wasn't as formal as i thot it would be.. den after tat went to eat prata b4 goin to poly marina. the lesson super boring lo. suppose to go for practical but cancel due to rain. oh my the rain very weird de lo.. wait till the very last moment den start raining. stupid. okay after tat went back to class sat beside bing..disturb her thru out the lesson. haha! hm. when lesson end i rush back to skool for rehersal. phew.. when it finally end.. went to eat dinner at food court 4 wid xiaozhao. chatted wid her about lots of things..really alot. haha.den took train back wid her. today is a talkin day for me man.. haha successfully talk to ppl tat i usually find difficult no common topic to talk to. surprisingly it was easy n nice. wooh~ so long since i last talk to ekkachai properly on msn. haha. time flies man he's goin off for his sailing soon. oh my.. i wonder how will it be like 12 months later.. will i still be the same old me. thinkin thing deeper now.. i really find myself childish. my actions my words.. i still use childish ways to represent myself. sometimes i say o myself i want to grow up. in physically n mentally. but.. it seems like... not working uh.. some of my seniors will tell me.. sage ar sage why so naive.. hmm..i oso wonder why..although time to time i know wat they meant but i still rather think n phrase it into a more simple thing which lead to ppl thinkin i'm naive. is it i'm naive or i jus wan to purposely portray a naive side for ppl to see? i don know.

SAGE promise EKKACHAI even if he goes off for sailing for 12 months i wont forget him this good friend..x)

went bishan park n play with the erm. wat is it call? i don know.. something got to do wif fire n a stick tat gives of spark la.haha! hm.. den actually wanted to walk over to the tall buildin to see fire work but instead we sat on the bridge to see stars instead. i think when everybody is lookin at fire work.. they will nv notice the starry sky ba. ytd's sky was actually fill wid nice bright stars. we still went over to the buildin instead. but see scenery only. den we walk down the stairs. walk back to the place where we play.. sat down n started tearin paper from the box n fold things. received a pretty nice little crane.(:

very difficult to fold k..cos the paper from box was quite thick.had hard time foldin the things.den we walk over to playground sit down n talk.haha.the sky was really pretty last night.talk alot,went home after tat.

woke up in the afternoon, haha. went for lunch wid my jie n cousin den watch 'bedtime stories' wid them. rather nice movie..haha.ate medicine was super giddy.. den my cousin accompanied me go to my sis's car to sleep 1st. when my 2nd jie n her bf came into the car.. they're super noisy.. i scream at them. felt bad but her bf shouted at me too. den i was too pissed off to talk to him. actually my dajie planned tat we should go to my dad's place for dinner.. but i really felt uncomfortable. told her to drive me home instead. i spend the whole evening sleepin. haha. when i woke up was goin 9pm alr.