today is a total overbearing day for me. overslept in the morning. lack of sleep, feeling hungry n gastric pain. not in good mood. but had to put on smile on my face so tat i can be the normal me n not get questioned. borrowed jacket from kevin, wore it cos can feel the chill in my spine. especially when i haf gastric pain. damn. still got to pretend nth happen. got ppl make some noise but i don care. finally time to eat.. mac long queue wait for the burger till cannot take it keep starin at the cashier. den he take for me. wth lo. den sat down eat. eat things don talk. wat i always do. although i don haf tat smile on my face doesn't mean i not happy. eat how to smile.hm after tat went for killing engineerin drawin. i almost burst into tears. really felt tired. my eyes hurt, some more forget to bring specs. my head spin.. me, ain n isaac went crazy now there keep laughin at our own joke. no one else understand wat we talkin about. hm.today's class end early. i went to sma room wid julien. i felt weird n kinda sad at 1st. hm i din mean to do wat ever i did. why the outcome is always something tat upset me.nvm talk to sivien n felt beta. after tat went to eat wid angel,sivien,anston,chris,isaac n duwi at fc3.. they very cute n funny la.. down there see ' show ' how they disturb each other. haha.went back room to take things n went home. i haf 2 projects waiting for me to finish. i feel helpless. i feel tired. really lack of ideas how to do the projects. but tmr's the deadline. help~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sage