happiness

love update!

2011-04-03T21:50:00.003+08:00

haha, i know i know. this is my LONGEST period of not blogging(:

i'm doing really well, almost perfectly fine. just very lazy to blog. haha. no time, so tired everyday!will blog more when i'm free i promise... but gotta wake up at 5 tmr! so ciao!

tiny hearts, big big love.dedicated to all the ppl i love(:

2011-02-18T23:17:00.011+08:00

Hi! has been ages since i last blogged. had TONNES of things for me to do for past few weeks. things are alomst done n most of them completed. now left 2 exams. 2 exams and i'm done wid poly. will be graduating soon.. so fast. time really flies, rmb when i first enter poly was really active and high, always on the go kind.. (*laugh) nowwww.. i really cant be bother and really lazy.

3years of my poly life, i've really learnt alot, not like i'm sayin i'm knowledgable but, in the sense tat i've see and experience lots of things.. from friends,

lecturers, super gfs, and classmates. (: really thank them for my super fun poly life. i oso wan to thank all the camps and all made me meet my superb boyfriend, weekiat.

my no.1 prince charming tat came into my life showered me wid all the love. made ppl so

jealous and start bad mouthing me. HA. tis is how strong his love was for me.(: my super bf, make me so crazily in love wid him, everyday making me fall in love wid him in different ways.haha! he's jus so adorable and loving. my charming weekiat.(: hon, i love you! to the

max! (:

my special group of friends tat had been wid me thru tis 3

years(: all the little conflicts, laughters, jokes, pranks, studies, exciting moments we had, really spiced up the boring life in poly.(: Thank you: Xuebing, Suxin, Rosalyn, Yuhan, Jieliang, Maysiew, Elite, Louis, Jamond, Hongming, Isaac fong, Ain,Hafiz, Kent all the sparc and track ppl and a lot of them, so much so much, i couldnt name all, i thank you all for

making my life happier(:

my cute and lovely groups of gf tat stayed wid my thru thick and thin,

Jody Low, Xu Xiao Zhao, Julien Ng and used-to-be-one-i-know-as Patricia, i really thank you gals, stayed wid me thru my misery, worries, happy times and all. though some we havent met like for year or so.. but in my heart, you gals left prints tat cant be erase off. (: i love you all!

think back, i really enjoy my life for past few years, but one cannot hold back by the past, we must always look forward. and i am willing n bravely moving on to my next stage, next chapter of life. i know weekiat will be by my side go thru the future and make it to our h

appy ending. (: baby, i'm looking forward. i wan to see and listen how you goin to kneel down propose marriage to me and put the life time ring on my finger bond our love together. i'm really looking forward.

Future wont be easy but at least we know we're not alone.(:

reflection.

2010-12-12T02:54:00.003+08:00

recently i've been thinking a lot. like what's right what's wrong. white and black is there really tis grey area that we people cannot interfere with. i didn't get myself emotional. just purely let the thoughts run through my mind. thinking i've always been helping people or rather think i'm helping people. am i really helping? or rather i invert more hurt into them. i've been thinking i always think i am a good person. am i really one? what causes this thoughts wasn't because things like what my dearest hurt me. just i think i really hurt my friend. i thought by asking one to talk their heart out, will feel better. but i think the matter that person is dealing with is far worst than what i've encounter. well. and i thought i could like always be the 'good person' give words of advice then that person will pick it up and recover. but i was wrong. it turn out i invert more hurt and caused more pain. i'm really very guilty and sorry. i reflected on myself and realize i was been 'busybody' den being 'helpful'.some people, some problem may be well left untouched and let it recover by itself. yes, time is needed. cannot rush it. trying speed things up often make things worst. perhaps that's the grey area in life. noone can interfere with it. let it be. it'll heal some day.

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wasn't a good friday and saturday i was looking forward to. my plans din work out because my dear got confine. i broke down but din want to bother others. i bottled up just like before. and last thing i wanted to do making weijie felt worst was to cry to him and say out how bad i felt how disappointed i am and made him feel worst. sigh. yes perhaps i am a bad girlfriend. i don't know how to think in his shoes seeing him so tired and down already i still continue to make things worst for him. but before saying anything like i am worst girlfriend ever. you aint the one going thru what i was going thru. you aint the one weijie love and dote on. you aint the one waitin patiently for him to book out every weekend. you aint the one baked cake but he got confine and had to throw all your effort into drain. you aint the one loving him. i really felt my heart sank when i saw him msg. i sent almost or more than 60 msges in just 3 days knowing he wont be able to reply but i keep sending thinkin he'll feel damn happy to see i report to him almost every hour one msg. telling him what i was doin what i eat who i'm wid and all. but the first msg you receive after 3 days was he cant come back on weekend. my broken. you know how it felt? like some one rip your heart and throw all the pieces into salt water. sigh. i still feel bad. yes. i'm still a bad girlfriend. but so what as long as he loves me. i dont care what others say.

kiss me -- Olivia

2010-12-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

Kiss me out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside the green, green grass Swing, swing, swing the spinning step You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress. [Chorus:] Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me Kiss me down by the broken tree house Swing me upon its hanging tire Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

[repeat chorus]

i'm waiting for you.

2010-12-02T19:34:00.002+08:00

hon, you're on your field camp trip, and i'm waiting for you.(:

patiently and looking very very forward to meet you on sat hopefully.

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drove jody to serangoon mrt today.(:

as usual we talk like never ending thru out the ride.(:

she's still SOOOOO sweet as ever. very very cute. haha babe, jus rmb i'm just a few clicks away. dial my no. and i'll talk to you no matter wat time okay! a promise sagey sister give you! (: love love~

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i'm ready for exam(:

happy 6 month anniversary baby<3

2010-11-20T14:32:00.001+08:00

Made a special thing for baby. :) will post on blog tmr or wat when he sees it himself and hope it'll be something tat touches him. Cos I spent hours literally hours to do it. Figure how to do to buy the stuff to do it. :) baby look forward to it. :)

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wat a wonderful day~

2010-10-24T00:54:00.008+08:00

haha had a wonderful day wid my dearest.(: spent early afternoon at jurong wave pool den went jurong point for pizza & SHOPPING SPREE! (for me!!!) den went back to his ah ma hse to put things den meet my sis they all for dinner(: den go back ah ma hse to watch movie!!!! den his granddad send me home again.(: love my day!simple yet lovely&pleasant~ lovelove!

fri i renew my line, sold the phone on the spot and oso change my line to the one wid data plan. so now i can online as and when i like! :D

looking back at tis week, really realise i nv really do alot of stuff huh. except for i passed my life saving. hmmmmmm, well. at least i got my very comfy sleep back. (: anyway will be having my PT on monday! wish me luck!

tis week.

2010-10-21T19:48:00.003+08:00

1st week of skool? time table is kinda slack for my last sem. (: like it, can go home nap and go swimming all tat stuff.

And OH OH talking about swimming, I'VE PASSED MY LIFE SAVING 1,2,3! heheheheh. so happy. :D so now mus work hard for my BM den next time i wont need to do cat 1 swimming le.

And receive a bad news for the week. it's a must for me to take nafa. :( so long nv run already. my ankle still cannot allow me to even jog. how to run. :( baby say will train wid me slowly. baby mus push me k...? i a bit scare i cant run like how i used to be like. :(

Baby i miss you so much. really miss you miss you miss you.

another day, another saying.

2010-10-17T21:27:00.005+08:00

haha, another weekend spent together thorounghly.fri we meet for dinner and sat we went to swim and watch movie,"child's eye". den had a night gathering wid my sisters and cousins at evans road. baby stayed over my hse,hahah poor him sleep in living room again.LOL. i sound sympathic enough right! hahahahaha(:anyway the weekend i use 2words to describe: super nice! (: today was like wooots! simple things done but felt sweet.:D we played scrabble together and we actually argue over it. HAHA. we use all the alphabets! smart right.muahah. den we were like, if you need check dictionary for words, will get smack on forehead. hehehe new punishment since baby is botak! MUAHAHA. den he kept givin me chance hit his forehead. heex.. den we had dinner at mac den left for pasir ris to send him off. oh ya, baby told me a phrase today,

" Don't find difficulties in opportunity, find opportunity in difficulties."

chim, i'm still tryin to figure out the real meaning behind it.and below are some photos took at the bus stop(:

haha, highlight for the week? i went to USS( Universal Studio Singapore ) on friday(: very fun but the sun is baking and since it's a friday the queue is super long, recommended to go on a weekday like tues to thurs. haha. photos would be uploaded by my cousins on FB. (:

awwww, girlfriend jody came back from her sweet trip! (: hear all the things she said, awwwww heart melts!!!!!!! love you girlfriend! (: babe if you're seeing this , i'm glad you like your present. and rmb i'm always a call away! (: lovelove!

this week.

2010-10-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

what a week. seems to be kinda busy, i try to arrange as many things to do as possible.

mon i packed my room. threw out lots of stuff and all for one whole day.

tues i went for driving finally after so long, den went pulau ubin wid my parents den i finally met up wid xiaozhao and aaron for a nice sushi dinner like last time. den had koi as dessert before going home.

wed went out wid parents to shop for furniture and stuff.i totally forgot i got life saving class, i cooked dinner for my whole fam.

thurs, a havoc day for me. morning i woke up realising i'm alone at home, i got no key. i gotta go out for class gathering. den i was like very frustrated and stuff. i keep throwing tantrum den i finally got out after my bro came back to open the door for me. had seoul garden which lasted me for whole day. i rejected goin movie wid them, was too tired. i came home den i fell asleep on the sofa. den went to room to sleep again till 8 plus. den i went to bath start to stare at my phone waiting for my darling to call me. oh did i say, his phone was confiscated cos the other night he text me and got caught. sigh. i waited and waited finally at 10 he called and we talk for a while. i almost cry when i hear his voice, den i was havin bad cough, keep interruptin his convo wid me. felt so bad and he keep sayin his heart is aching. :( baby, sorry for not keep my promise to take care of myself......

i miss you badly, hope you can book out tmr. den we can go night safari wid my fam.. den come stay over. go and haf our midnight mac. dear, i miss you.

sage

2010-10-05T16:41:00.002+08:00

my cutie pie and me

4th month anniversary present(:

sat went over to baby's hse. was the day where we decided to celebrate for his mum's bday. so we went to buy cake and ingredient for dinner.( I COOK!). i cook bak kuh teh wid longevity noodle for her mum wid 2 heard boil egg.(: we oso bought a watch for her. (oso bought a bag for my mum's belated gift.)den he sent me home after we catch a movie.(:

sun meet him at noon. i lost my key and was locked at home. luckily my bro came home open the door den we went to pasir ris to meet lovely girlfriend jody and aaron wid her present(*winks).my baby in his uniform 4 so handsome! :D wooots! makes me feel so proud of him! :D

i miss him so much now. ahhhhh.D:

sage

paranoid days

2010-09-28T03:21:00.008+08:00

Havent been feeling very well.sick and made me very fragile to depressed feelings. missing my weekiat alot alot. burst into tears last night. couldn't sleep. i keep seeing the video we recorded the other time during national day, at barber and at long john(clementi branch). i jus miss him alot. i know he's booking out soon. and i'm really looking very very forward to meet him.i'm waiting for my love!(:

this are some favourite photo of mine for sp photo shoot. more are uploaded on FB.

i know i ain't pretty, but it isn't a crime to go try and take photo. leaving a print in SP in my last year of poly. some beautiful memories.

sleepy days(:

2010-09-23T00:12:00.002+08:00

having my holidays now. rotting at home almost everyday. sleep sleep & sleep is my sole goal now. hehe. tryin get rid of my panda eyes. :P

forget to mention, just passed,monday went for SP photo shoot. was kinda fun but was tiring. haha.met a group of fun ppl and the funny camera man.(: very friendly ppl. haha. had a great time tat helps to burn my free time away.

day no.10 without my boyfriend wid me daily,argh.tough. really.miss him alot.

deardear!!!!!!!!! i miss you alot.really alot. arghhhhhhhhh.

bought moon cake for his mum. but they dont eat she ask me dont give her, save it for myself, she understand the meaning. it's the thot tat counts she said. some more ask me to join her and grandma on weekend for lunch. hehe. so paiseh. but so heart warming.. weijie say they think i'm they family member alr. hahaha. so nice of them.(:

sage

i love it when you call.(:

2010-09-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

i'm always waiting for his call around 9pm.(: at least i got something to look forward to.(: time to time in the day he'll call me too. haha. when i hear his voice, it'll light up my whole afternoon! counting down to 12 days to his book out.

love, i've thot of what to give you for our anniversary. :D something you'll be damn happy to receive. i can almost imagine how your face will be like and what you'll say. haha! look forward ba!(: love love love.

awful day.

2010-09-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

had an awful day.

first woke up later den expected, went to skool study. while goin to exam venue sprain my ankle, which hurt like hell. den the math paper, SUCK! i don't really know how to do. so scare i cannot pass. :(

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i miss him. badly. passes by the place he accompanied me to, i'mreminded i miss him.

took the long bus journey,with him seems so short,alone,journey took forever to end.i'm reminded i miss him.

i do math paper, when wid him i do it happily like no problem,alone, it makes me feel so miserable.i'm reminded i miss him.

today while revising, i almost broke down. suxin was beside me, din wan her to worry hold back my tears, buried my face into his lucky jacket. i really miss him...hm,though one thing tat cheered me up is that, he misses me as much. (:

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our fourth month anniversary is on coming monday. dear, i miss you dearly.

sage

Dedicating to backstabber.

2010-09-12T02:21:00.003+08:00

Yes, i'm going to take a break from learning to be mature. Being CHILDISH to accomodate the anger i want to dissipate.

I'm declaring war against a backstabber.

Especially when you're a male and older than the victim you backstab.

Anyone,in fact, EVERYONE close to me would haf guess who i'm referring to.

Seriously i don't understand at first, was it just the pathetic sense of jealousy or it's 'pure-unknowingly-random-badmouthing that you thought is a very funny joke'. It's not like you try it only 2 or 3 times. Already like so freaking many times you push me to my limits and test how far i can go.Pushing your luck way too far now.I do admit i don't haf a good set of temper like my boyfriend does. But for me to not flare up with the nonsense you said past few times was the thought that you thought what you said was funny according to my boyfriend.Though it isn't.i already try my best not to flare up.BUT hearing what you said today again. I think i am so stupid to haf thought you're that dumb. you obviously know what you've said given your age and your brain. it's not like inside is fungi farm.

i am now seriously declaring war against you. You started up a war thinking you'll win, when the fact is you won't. It isn't anything like hatre, i don't hate you. Just pure dislike & angry of you.

mixture of feelings,but feeling positive

2010-08-26T14:23:00.002+08:00

well, it has been days since i came back from tioman. a fun trip though din get to go out to haf the exact sun tanning i wanted and all the sea sports and stuff. because xuebing was sick, havin high fever tat me and suxin (sharing he queen size bed wid her) haf to take turns to take care of her. well, i din really take care of her except i wake up like 5 or 6 in the morning and let suxin who had take care of her thru out the night to rest. den i will keep askin xuebing drink up, ask her change clothing,change towel. While suxin really put in great effort in helpin xuebing wipe off the sweat and change towel and all. i felt damn guilty bcos of tat too. during the day me and suxin will take turn to take nap to take care of her but i slept more!!! :x cos i was falling sick to. den i keep forcing myself to drink up and bath to prevent it from happening. den the best is i din fall sick, suxin was falling sick due to lack of sleep. :( den end up suxin keep sleeping.. den as xuebing starts to get beta,i started to go out. went to play volleyball, and end up gettin cut by coral den went to swimming pool, den hit by ball.

what's it like to spend my bday oversea.. bad. my friends used volleyball to hit me 19times. giving me blue black and i miss my boyfriend so much.haf to talk to him n phone every night. den when i return, i dash into his hug man. really miss him.

all those who return from tioman fell sick. of cos including me.. tryin to get well now.. fever come and go. my running nose is like open tap, ughhh. everyone, get well soon~

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when i came back to s'pore, my boyfriend broke the news that he'll be entering army in less den a month. i stoned. well, to me it has always been a good thing for guys to enter army. i always feel army is the period when boys turn into men. i'm happy for deardear to receive the letter of acknowledgement. jus din expect it is like so fast. the mixture of feelings caught me right into it. how do i put it. i know his fear, worries and everything. we talk about it before. jus that when it really happen, we don know how to face it. i oso got my fear, my worries.. but we are confident about each other. that's the key. all our fear and worries had been put behind since the night we had our heart to heart talk again. we trust each other. and know there cant be anyone beta suit us den ourselves alr.so we decided to jus treat it as a normal thing, while we still can joke about it and stuff. take it light and not face it like once he enter everything sure change. we cant do anything oso wat. it's like no matter how fearful we are of his entry to army, he still got to go in no matter wat. to face it using all those negative feelings. why not see the bright sight where it means we're one step closer to our future. the future we always wanted to haf each other hand in hand. (:

i know it's quite immature of me to think tis way. but i rather hold on to tis childish thinkings and wait for him whole heartedly.deardear, i'm countings down to 5 years,(:

sage

i am very loved.(:

2010-08-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

i really felt the love for me from people who love me.(:

super touched by my boyfriend especially.

it's not the present he bought for me but the effort behind everything he did.

he know i like stitch. he bought a big doll stitch for me. he made a puzzle for me and bought/made a cake from icing room for me. he even brought me to ice skating, another sweet little reason is when i'm falling he can hug me prevent me from fallin. HAHA!

he is really filling down about my trip bcos tis means my 1st bday actual day celebration wont be tgt wid him.i felt damn bad. really bad but i cant back out. also he is gonna haf his TP on tues but i'll be oversea.. hmmm at first i really wanted to give up my trip to stay in s'pore but it will mean abandoning my clique that had been thru alot wid me the past 2 and a half year, wasting money and feeling guilty. den he ask me to go..i felt like i'm a real bad gf. but he explain to me sayin i planned the trip way b4 i get tgt wid him. there isnt any reason i abandon my friends moreover tis might even be the last time i go oversea wid my clique b4 i grad.. i felt super touched by wat he say. baby i love you x 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

had a nice fam dinner jus not(: a very nice and cosy one. haha. love everyone!!!

sage

nice day(:

2010-08-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

haha! went to baby's hse today. before that went to amk hub ntuc bought the ingredient for baby's and his brother lunch. took train and bus ( i never lose my way!!! ). when i reach lakeside, i gave them a call say:" wash up! i'm reaching in 5mins, muahahahaha!" they were stunt.

cooked chili maggie wid hotdog and lunchen meat and veg noodle for them(: nice. haha den baby slept while i watch percy jackson and the lightning theif again.heez. when my show ends, we went bowling wid his bro. HAHA! super fun can! (: they had a challenge betting who will win, loser will need to tidy and clean the hse for next week. den baby suddenly turn to me say if i can win him, he'll clean my hse. he feels he'll win since it was jus my 3rd time playin bowling. DEN, I WON. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. he was like cursing say i got beginner's luck. :D

den we had dinner wid their mum.chit chat along and had a lovely session gossiping about baby and his bro. LOL. den went to sheng shiong to buy their drinks to be stored.

1.though today actual plan was to go tortise farm at chinese garden, but din go cos i saw baby sleeping din wan disturb him. 2.den we werent suppose to meet his mum for dinner. 3. suppose to send me home b4 8 since my hse is very far from his. but we still enjoy our day very very much. (:

my new word for the day: ciao

2010-08-08T23:02:00.004+08:00

ytd i gave baby our 3rd month present in advance. our 1st couple ring i choose.. not very ex.. but it's the thot tat count isnt it? and den we went for kaiyuan dage's chalet to celebrate his bday in advance wid aaron and jody sweetie. AND once again learnt my lesson.. sigh. i got drunk again. made baby worry about me. felt damn bad.he got to hold me up ask my jie look after me.which gave my jie a shock lols.

why i say i learnt my lesson cos i haf bad hangover tis morning and had fever later. sigh. baby came to find me at my hse. so funny. my mum like him so much. haha! keep talkin to him and ask why he keep his hair so long and stuff. even my jie oso talk to him alot. den we show off who hagen love more. tat small sneaky traitor like baby more. LOL. hmm. den before he left he say ciao. den i stun.don know wat he say. haha. den he say wah you very chinese leh. ciao is bye.. den i say i only know adios.. haha.

had a sleepy whole day. keep sleeping.. super sleepyhead.can help to replenish back the lost of sleep the week b4 i guess.(:

baby told me something really touched my heart.shall not share it here later he blush again(: but i can tell you u're feel the sweetness right from bottom of ur heart when u hear wat he say. cos tat's wat i'm feeling right now.:D

lost.

2010-08-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

i feel so bad. i lost the ring my dear gave me. lost it some where at home. sigh. he told me it's okay but it aint okay at all. i feel so uncomfortable and insecure wid the ring not on my left fourth finger.

roundround, i'm so sorry i lost the ring. i really cant find it. my mum and sis say probably my cat ate it. sigh. i don know how..

busy wid my fyp this coming week because presentation would be on wed.. a 20 weightage preliminary presentation. thurs will haf gems test in the morning and another shipping biz test in the noon. :( fri would be auxiliary machinary test. like wtf. who say poly is slack. den YOG holiday would begin.

this coming YOG holiday wont be of much holiday. really need to work to earn money. why am i so broke i oso don know.. sigh. i oso wan accompany my dearest during this holiday.i feel like splitting myself into 5. cos i oso need to study during this holiday. argh.

2010-07-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

ytd after fyp meet baby for movie at bishan.(: but first we went west coast plaza for food.when we reach bishan, went straight to buy movie tix. den we saw arcade by the side. hehe. as usual we went to try lucky. almost caught!!!!!!! den was kinda upset den baby bought me scramp, we after tat name it button, a toy from lilo and stitch movie.(:

had fyp workshop again. den went back early for prayin. baby surprise me wid my favourite flower, baby's breathe! den we took a short nap den i request to cut his hair. HAHA! he let me cut!!!!!! (: den i jus merely trim it. trim abit only.. looks shorter.(: so much nicer(: baby i love you!!!!!! :D thanks for lettin me touch ur precious hair i know i'm more impt den ur hair now(:

i'm really lacking of sleep these days. 1 more week to YOG break. wants to work during tis holiday to earn as much money as possible den count down 20 days to TIOMAN trip!!!! :D den when i come back mus study. study very hard for the next 10 days. den 30th aug to 4th sept exam. den another 6 weeks break. sage jiayou! everyone jiayou!

angelic or devilish?

2010-07-23T22:45:00.004+08:00

oh boy. i needa slim down as in seriously. perhaps losing another 5kg will be just nice. sigh. FIVE, F-I-V-E kg. really wonder how can i do it.

went out wid baby today. saw his brother, and i was like STUN. and forget to even greet him den he walked away. weijie keep sayin i damn dao. SHATs. i din do it on purpose. den he made me traumatized and remain tat way thru out the way back my hse. i was messy, am fat, ugly and short. ARGH. i should haf dressed up if i know will bump into his family member.at least put on light make up or wat. argh..

well, some things i wanna share. jus cant understand friendship, or wat we so called close friends are. i always thot friends are people that tells you the truth. even when knowing wat they say might hurt you,but confident tat they will stay wid you thru out ur misery, help you thru. they wont bear to see you being upset and stuff.but the last thing they would wan to see you is stuck in a dead end and not moving on. really. i really thot these are qualities a close friends should haf. cos i would wan my close friends to be like tat.but wat really amaze me is, some people actually don need tat. they jus wan you to hear wat happen to him or her, den expect you to help him or her thru it, yet they themselves not wanting to move on. they don wan anything to change in anyway else but in their way. the first thot cross my mind was,FAT HOPE. life often don go in YOUR way. jus feel damn amazed wid wat the reaction was when their friends keep askin them to move on and they jus flare up asked them stop being so irritating. HA. wat a reaction right.

hmm, well. i jus feel since you don need some one treating you tis way. den you don expect a true friendship or when you need someone, someone to be there for you. really. you should jus continue to drown yourself in the whole-wide-world-owe-you thot. don whine to people about you very pitiful or wat. cos you're the one pushin people away. you stupid ignorance attitude doesnt make you worth a true friendship. yes. i'm being harsh. but i tell you. wat i say is jus merely the truth. and from someone really wan you to wake up from your stupidness.

PS: not referring to any of my close friends.

sage

(:smiles

2010-07-21T19:25:00.005+08:00

has been so lazy to blog recently. not tat i'm very busy nor not being busy at all. it's like kinda no motivation to blog. nothing much to share wid ppl too. very happily attached too. (: wejie treat me really well. i shall not share more later ppl jealous. LOL. jk la.(: gotta do my fyp now. (: tarla~

he fell asleep while we were takin bus. when he woke up i say i wan take foto he fake sleep. LOL

awww

2010-07-05T22:03:00.003+08:00

today is a wonderful day(: good work done for driving. my instructor first time never scold me for whole session.(: i was damn HAPPY!

but never meet my baby today. miss him alot.

STUDY STUDY STUDY i need time to study.

my body seems to be telling me i need some alcohol in my blood..my mind is telling me alcohol is bad, is harmful is toxic, i dont need it.

sage

a piece of my mind

2010-07-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

baby, i'm sorry. i always have too high expectation then make you work towards it and expect you to do it. is my fault. so sorry.let's make a promise each other let's not quarrel already k? but you oso must promise cannot purposely make me angry k? not tat i would expect u not to do anything at all alr. jus not like wat i used to do, k? sage

little things in life.

2010-06-27T16:55:00.004+08:00

Alot of things happen lately, good and bad. getting thru all this obstacles are like trying to swim thru waves, some pushes you towards shore and some pull you back to ocean.

Luckily i haf weijie.we help each other thru out everything, held on to each other no matter wat nv give up.

If this is how life suppose to be, i don mind walking down centuries wid him like tat. i believe we both wont feel bored of each other or tired of each other.we both are willing to change for each other. like he prefer gals wid short hair. i cut my hair despite knowing i'm more suitable for long hair. he cut his hair for me, bcos eveyone say he look prettier den me in tat hair. HAHAHAHA. he tolerate my temper, i tryin to change for the beta. he make me smile, i cheer him up. he made me cry, i made him pissed. he made me jealous, i made him sad. he gave me present, i surprise him wid another. (: our characteristic are totally opposite, but we seems to know wat each other are thinking, feeling and doing. we just made ourself transparent in front of each other. nothing to hide. no matter wat ugliness we haf inside, we show and it's tat, tat drew us nearer.

We know nth is perfect, no one is perfect. only knowing to accept your own imperfection, learn to appreciate other's imperfections, den only you can learn and experience love. weijie made me learn to see good points in ppl when meeting them, and learn to accept their flaws. it's the only right way tat ppl will love you for who you are. they'll appreciate you.

baby, i totally appreciate you. you for who you are. i can feel i'm so crazily in love wid you. (: it jus feel so nice to open my eyes and know no matter wat happen today i got you to go thru it wid me(:

oh ya oh ya, JODY is my newest gal BEST FRIEND!!! WOOOTS~~~~ she's superb. very pretty, cute and everything.(: we jus click!(: enjoy goin out wid her. jus like ytd's double date. weijie keep sayin luckily i can click wid his buddy's gf.(: hees,i jus simply like jody man!! she got a very cute and straight forward character tat make ppl like her easily.(: hope to see her sooooonnnnnn!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sage

1234

2010-06-16T21:15:00.001+08:00

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4 Give me more lovin' than I've ever had Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not Make me feel good when I hurt so bad Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you I love bein' around you You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4 There's only one thing to do Three words for you I love you There's only one way to say Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you Give me more lovin' from the very start Piece me back together when I fall apart Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends Make me feel good when I hurt so bad Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you I love bein' around you You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4 There's only one thing to do Three words for you I love you There's only one way to say Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you I love you You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4 There's only one thing to do Three words for you I love you There's only one way to say Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you I love you 1, 2, 3, 4 I love you I love you

lazy days

2010-06-13T18:44:00.003+08:00

(: finally finish my exam! yay~ :D been happy, emotional, angry, pissed, excited, embarrassed, alot of emotions. seen things i never expect myself to see, been through stuff i never expected. luckily i haf you dear. i believe we can help them to settle everything. phew. so lazy to blog nowadays. as days pass my pt date coming nearer.. ahhh... sage

2010-05-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

gonna be a busy week. needa catch up in my studies and stuff.. need plenty of time to study and i want go dating wid deardear! ahhh! ):

dear always bully me. :(

sage

to dearest

2010-05-23T02:18:00.003+08:00

ytd was seniors' grad. went to attend using my big bro, kaiyuan's ticket. sat wid julien n chris's mum. hm, took lots of fotos after tat.met dear's mum and grandma. was nervous ar!really nervous! hm, after tat went off to celebrate timothy's bday with dear and his friends. first gathering wid dear's friends.. was excited and kinda scare. but aye, was a good one. enjoyed myself. after tat benjamin drove and drop us off at amk near my hse. after tat dear decided i was still kinda high after drinking. den decided sit down let me rest awhile before i go home(: den went home after tat den sent me home..thanks dear, and all the friends and friend's gf. (: it was really a fun gathering. i hope we can have more of that kind of gathering!!!!! :D

to my dearest, weekiat:

thanks for everything.(: you're my everything, love. i won't forget the flower you gave me, your blank face when i cried, your happy face when i laugh, your sad face when i told you off or scream at you, your cute face when you tried to bastard me, your forgiving face when i apologized for stupid stuff i did, so on and so for.. it's just your everything that i like about. thanks for loving me..

sage, xueling

first photo

2010-05-19T11:16:00.003+08:00

not really first photo,

but this is the first photo taken that has meaning to it. (:

really love taking photo.

it'll help to capture the happiness at that very moment.

how happy you are and all the emotions(:

sage

night out.

2010-05-16T19:41:00.003+08:00

it was a great night.(:

the sweet little dirty secrets we share.

ps: dearest, dont break my heart.

by :sage:D

smiles

2010-05-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

when i look into your eyes, i smiled.

cos i saw my reflection,

only myself in your eyes.(:

sage

yuck

2010-05-08T16:01:00.003+08:00

i cant believe it. i thot my eyes were playin trick on me until i look into mirror i realise i really cough that fluid out. seeing the trace of blood on my lips.felt kinda disgusted by it. wash it off. decided to wash the basin too.

what am i doing when i'm suppose to be resting?

sage

coughing days

2010-05-07T11:17:00.004+08:00

cough&cough&cough. when would i stop coughing.

sage

thanks ppl.

2010-05-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

i got an asthma attack last night. all of a sudden. hm, was an mild attack. but was really uncomfortable. something tat unless you've been thru if not you wont understand how it felt like graspin for breathe like it's ur last time breathing.

it was for a short while but i really panicked. thot i would die.. in the end my sis thot i was faking. din really cared about me. until i fell to ground.. she called my parents. they brought me to doc middle of the night. took inhaler and medicine. den went home n knock out.

thanks for the care pa, ma, n jie jie.. and weekiat gor. (:

thanks for the care n worrying about me.

ma wanted to make me happy. bought the biscuit tibit for me again. the tibits she use to make me cheer up when i get attack when i'm a kid. saying " hey, you still a kid huh! still like wat u eat when u're young." i smiled. (:

weekiat, i owe you alot! (: i will repay you slowly.

sage

words to be said

2010-05-02T19:00:00.003+08:00

studied the whole day at bishan deli france with my cousin and her friends.

her exam is on tues. only can say all the best to her. seeing her so stress made me stress up too. so decided to leave 1st.went to her house do my lab reports and stuff. so many to do. cant seems to finish. sigh. tired.

some times i just wonder, how long can someone like another person. i've known people that are freaking sentimental also saw people that are some how not that sentimental. really amused me. how life can go about, or rather how one is so different from another.

sage

moodswing:(

2010-04-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for having mood swing.

sage

busy

2010-04-27T20:48:00.002+08:00

2 weeks into school reopen. i'm so busy. really stressed up with my school work. the math is killing me. just took a break from another 13 qns of engineering maths 2. oh my i feel like fainting. cant remember how i survived last year engineering math 1. Coming along with the practicals, lectures, tutorials and sleepiness. I can feel my head bursting. I struggled to stay awake during practical. D: well, i must work hard. i want to work hard and score well. alright. getting back into my studies.

friends, a group of people that will cheer you up, give you support, make you smile, listen to your misery and worries.

i'm lucky to have all my friends.

i'm sage.(:

meeting ur old friends(:

2010-04-18T13:31:00.004+08:00

ytd talk to a long time friend. nv expect will ever talk to him again! (: talk to him on fb den msn n den we text each other. we talk about our past. so funny.talk about last time when we were young wat stupid little stuff we did.(: den we meet up for KOI. treat him cos he cycled all the walk to amk to meet me. den walk back to my hse area to drink n chat. lol! we actually meet up at 8 plus we sit there till 12plus. hahaha. tat's how long we actually drink there cup of large KOI. :D i enjoyed talkin to him. cos it has been like since sec2 we last talk to each other. the way we knew each other wasnt some way normal ppl would expect. haha!

we knew each other bcos of our bro n sis. haha! they bring us out for little outings n den we met.(: den the last time we met was actually not a good one. i rmb he refuse to give me his no. cos he using prepaid card, wan save the prepaid card money. den i actually rmb tat. tat's the best. LOL. tat shows how petty i am i guess. hahah

shannon! don know whether you will see tis post but ytd was a good one! (: enjoyed meetin ya! cya soon since we're same skool. and and and! i wont let u grow again! cos i'm not holdin grudge about tat incident alr! xD i'll grow taller! muahahah

sage

argh

2010-04-15T14:05:00.004+08:00

it really is a diasater trying to organise one single night outing. wonder how my friend always organise. some don wan tis some don wan tat. den wat now. sigh. a qns without solution. how to solve.

ytd talk to my bro on msn. told him everything. one part of it. i felt relief at least i now don haf to feel so guilty about not tellin him some things. but once i told him, i felt like exposed. like being pushed into the sun without umbrella. clown without make ups.

maybe it's time to jus tone down abit. cool down b4 startin again.

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow. maybe goin rebel if i'm not wrong. anyway oso meetin oliver for a drink. it'll be my 2nd time drinking wid him after tat ipoh trip. miss tat hot cousin of mine! :D

sage

good start?

2010-04-14T11:26:00.014+08:00

i had quite a good start of the day by having a packet of food on my desk, the uncle tat help to clean the desk actually bought me breakfast.(:

Past few days was kind of disaster, am sick, still sick, and can't seems to have enough rest. then heard some breaking news by my group of girlfriends.

Days are passing so fast that my ITP will be ending in like 2 days time. I am kind of upset by that fact. I really enjoyed my time here, learnt lot of stuff that i know i can never learn in school. 6 weeks have to become memory alr. Not the present tense but past tense.

How much can i rmb 10 years down the road. Will i even rmb i once work 6weeks for GulfOilMarine? :(

sigh.

*************************************

I will let go,

they say, letting go is also a form of liking..

I will learn to like someone using the right way.

I grew up in such environment,

be that i am always the one letting go.

this time round would be the same...

i believe it would be that difficult, i've gave up so many things before too.

**************************************

We should learn to let go of some stuff before you fall even deeper.

Moreover the fact is, when you realise you ain't even worth, or you can't even be compared with at all.

sage

quote

2010-04-12T17:31:00.002+08:00

I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt... but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run..

i read this sentence in some page it struck me n i pause for a moment to think.. am i doing that to myself now.sage

my thankyou letter

2010-04-12T11:27:00.005+08:00

i am very busy right now. but decided to take a break from the tonnes of work waiting for me to finish and update my lonely blog.

i should be considered one of the lucky one. cos not many people can meet friends tat they can really pour out their worries and happiness to each other. but i met quite a few.(: really caring people tat i nv thot i would meet.

first was my group of gfs( bing, suxin, ros, charlene) . (: i really love them for loving me! hehe. * u all ar, prank me once more, i really gonna kick ur butts, make me worry for nth! * haha love watchin movie or haf dinner n haf some drinks or dessert at some place. (: it's really sweet.

den comes my newly acknowledge 2 big bro,kaiyuan&weekiat,along wid another friend of mine,derrick. (: the 3 are like a group of super nice n sentimental guys! muahah. though got bully me oso ar, but they protect me too! ppl i can talk thru out the night till i blur blur fell asleep. LOL.

den comes the little sister debbie! love dancing n talkin to her!(: she's a super duper cute gal!!!! another blur gal like bing bing's character! we say alr wan meet up go club tgt~(:

den i got best friends like isaac, reynold & chenjie. people i can jus call when i am super down or happy. they often share my joy n worries!

den i haf some friends, though not tat kind very close, but they are those when i see them i still haf topics to talk about kind.(:

i considered myself really lucky to know them. really, really.

2010-04-01T12:24:00.002+08:00

i browse thru my fotos albums, look for my friends i used to take lots of fotos n had them in my life. tears drops. i realise i'm someone tat once cling on to some things, n i'll haf a hard time lettin go. i kept crying. i really miss my 'friends'. why is it so. sigh.

in the past, i hated pink. cos i think pink is a soft colour. doesnt suit me. since when i started to accept tis colour n realise it's kinda sweet. since when? since when.

ever since i met tis gal from a cca gathering. she's not a crazy pink lover. but she jus has lots of pinky stuff. she's someone i used to describe as a rose. so beautiful, independent but full of thorns. anyone tries go near might be pricked. but if u're daring enough n don mind pain. mayb you can try goin near her. be sincere, be truthful. don mind tat she might leave you anytime once she feels she's burdening you. you can be her very good friend. really closed, like a phone call 12 am at night, we go out for a bubble tea n a stroll thru the park. haf a hearty chat.share lots of secrets, exchange some dirty little thots and laugh,smile like there's no tmr.a call, we go for a jog, exercise or register sundown marathon tgt. go haf a prata at thomson tgt. i rmb cryin alot, drinkin alot, when i know she's leaving skool for a beta future, a path she choose might look tough but i know she'll enjoy n love, n no more contact wid her. she'll be very busy, very busy enjoyin her new life. i knew there'll be a change in the friendship i called. i really trusted her, i knew all along she's someone unpredictable. so near you yet you can nv predict what'll she do next. tat's her very charming part. where i love yet hated the most. you jus cant do anything to stop her from leaving. i really miss this friend alot. really really. but i knew, this friendship had expired like milk. if i try to bring it back, it's jus cause me more misery.cos deep down i know she's good, far too good n unreachable.she's fast, always movin in a very fast pace where i like things to move slow. i had difficulty catchin up. she's beautiful, so beautiful. i feel inferior standin beside her yet, i always had tis low resistance against beautiful ppl. she's challenging, so challenging. i had to keep changing n challenging the impossible to be on par wid her. which i actually love doin. i used her as a target, a goal. someday i wan to be like her, not copy her or be exactly her but, she's a role model. i learnt alot from her. really alot. i believe if i'm a guy, i would long fall for her. cos she's really charming.

no one is perfect, so is she. she of cos has her own flaw. but she can cover her flaw flawlessly. you know it's a flaw, but she'll do something make tat flaw seems... so beautiful.

woah, i said so much about her. i feel like it's like i fell for her. actually i don know. mayb i did admire her n even love her before for who she was n is. but deep inside, i understand how things changed n part, drifted n will nv be the same again.

sage

reports

2010-03-30T09:47:00.003+08:00

wasnt feeling well the last few days, down wid some flu&fever. had a bit of difficulty in breathing. tat explained why i pant so hard when walkin up stairs. doc told me swimming is good for my current situation. so probably goin tonight.

office job, actually to say the truth, i kinda enjoy my current job scope.may it be sometimes i haf to go under rain get drenched, under sun be burnt, exposed to high heat. i still like it. it's really nice to be able to go both outside office n stay in office.

when i am busy, will do till forget time end up realising goin to end work alr. when i am free, i will stand in front or beside my in-charge wait for him to give me thigns to do. at times he'll be so pressured tat he quickly find something for me to do to stop my glare. HAHA. yay~ i won. muahaha

in tis office, i'm workin wid a group of very nice ppl. even when i was bein an ignorant n nonsense gal. they'll still kindly explain things to me.(: really like workin wid them.

2 & a half weeks more to end of itp. kinda don feel like endin tis. cos i really enjoyed my time time.D:

havin my mood swing tis few days. hm. very easily annoyed. hope noone will get shoot by me, i'll try to control my temper.. D:

green green went outfield again.......

i was told, love is like milk tat has expiry date while friendship is like cheese. the longer the more frangance n expensive it'll be.

sage

(: fotos

2010-03-30T09:34:00.005+08:00

fotos i edited, (:

moody

2010-03-23T16:06:00.004+08:00

was told my attire was kinda not appropriate today. was kinda sad, but nvm. probably shorts as office attire not tat good after all..wasnt feelin well. din really had my breakfast n lunch. forced myself to take a half of a sandwich in morning, den another half as lunch wid bean curd i ask my lao da to buy for me.

drink lots of hot water today. weather n air condition is killin me soon. havin the dizzy feelin n feel so lethagic. drank the carrot fruit juice bought ytd. not really really nice to my gastric. but drank it.since it's rich in vitamin C& E. at least it said so.

time pass so slowly today..usually i wont feel tis way. when i saw new msg i had a smile on my face, when i open not green green. got a moment i forgotten he went out field. wished he was around. argh~ did some keying of data today, was kinda fast in complyin them. end up finishin job early n nth to do. cant really watch youtube. so i ended up listening to recording.

sort of ease my bad mood abit. feeling much beta. den my supervisor told me tmr mayb i cant go ship achorage again. hee.. he's really my lucky star.(:

rained tis morning. wonder if you at the other part of singapore experienced tat too. like i said, every rain drop counts. it's how much u're missed.

sage

office new resolution(:

2010-03-22T12:42:00.006+08:00

i'm listening to his voice now. oh my, green green, kinda ... ... miss ya.

hm, think quite long since i last update my blog. (: psps. was kinda bz n lazy to..

working in gulf oil marine is fun, happy time probably pass easily. weeks after weeks, seems SO fast man. but guess tis week will be quite tough. wid green green not around n andreas lao da not around in office to talk to. ERM..

did lots of stuff tis few weeks. went thru alot of happy stuff, bit of sad stuff. not really related to me. but had strong feeling for wat happen.

kinda don know wat to do for my friend, but jus be there for her if she needs us. only stuff we could do was to make her happy, stay wid her, let her know when she wan us, we'll always be wid her. nth about sympathising. it's friendship.

i'm simple, i'm tat kind of person tat believe in reciprocation when it comes to friendship. if u're there for me when i needed help, believe me. i'll definitely be there when u need me. mayb not exactly immediately rush down but i will rush down as soon as i can to be there for u.

many ppl say tat n cant even make it come true. they jus say for sake of sayin but i wont if u know me. i believe in promises, i wont make promises unnecessarily.

but i got a bad concept whereby when u betray my trust once, it's tough to gain it back. i was kinda disappointed wid some ppl. not tat i'm makin myself seems like i'm precious or wat. but wat they did really don telly wid wat they used to say. disappointing is the only word i can describe.

took lots of fotos tis few weeks. went out till late night n stuff. really enjoy myself throughly. (:

eh, my parents n bro went thai for a good 6days. the house is like so quiet eh. wid my 2 sisters coming home late everyday. therefore i've come to conclusion to make myself busy n keep myself fit. i'll be goin swimming every evening! den go eat dinner. cos office job really makin me fat wid everyone doting on me treating me lunch. green green say i'll become more " BUBBLY". more round n stuff. argh. everyone sayin i'm growing fatter. needa do something to it! cannot gain weight la!!!!! i wan slim down!! *cries*

i'm coming out wid a plan. not gonna eat lunch anymore. haf a heavy breakfast, during work don drink sweet drinks, ( drink hot green tea tat need to be brew), don take lunch, evening go swim ( tis is for my shoulder too, no choice mus move it though it's hurting. ) , den eat dinner , go home accompany my darling hagen.(: till friday green green will be back den can call n talk on phone! yay! friday faster come!

i like hearing green green talk on phone. very relaxing n fun. (: u'll definitely be missed for this 5 days!

sagey

simple me(:

2010-03-10T21:02:00.003+08:00

woah, it's like blink of an eye. my exams are over den i'm havin my itp alr! haha tis 3days so cool!

first day of itp was almost late. cos i waited for my dajie. alighted at newton n cab over to company. realisin my company actually is like right, right above great world city~ den listen to introduction about company. din haf proper seat for 1st day cos wasnt packed. den sat in my supervisor's office wid him n 2 other sales manager. den he went off for some meeting. left me wid the sales manager jeffrey whom was a nice guy. kept talkin to me about company n products like promotin to me the stuff. HAHA. but i listen till almost doze off. den i kept drinkin water to keep myself awake. after tat really cant take it. went to find the admin lady jasmine, to help her wid the stuff. den waited for knock off time.

second day, went to office had a desk n cubicle for myself! den met the technical engineer, audreas, a 25 years old guy tat happen to be on leave on monday. he was my 2nd in charge. HE almost gave me presentations n talks.. woah, 4 hours of presentation man. den did some work. he actually taught me how to do the conversion. which was really challengin. cos u haf to look at the chart which was like wid font of 1.5 mm only, lol. half time smaller den my words. den refer here n there den write out type out den let him check. den i rot there a while, knock off! went to meet iz n 2 of his friends for dinner. he treated us to the buffet at marriot cafe. each person 60bucks at least man! he so so so RICH! we sat there chit chat n eat chit chat n play.hm, after james ( one of his friend) left, we sat for awhile longer, den left for movie at lido. hm, watch the 3D alice in the wonderland. WOAH much much nicer den 2D one.really. after movie, cab home.

third day, went to work. did the actual conversion chart tat was assigned to me. den continue to do bt n pieces of touch up. audreas taught me to pack the files n goodies bag for client. (cos tmr goin to meet them.) den waited for lunch. meet zhaohui for lunch. he treat me yoshinoya.(: his bday he haf to come all the way down to meet me still treat me man. feel so bad. :X den talk to him awhile went up to work. haha. went back up to work, but there wasnt really much for me to do. cos both of my in charge haf their stuff to do. so i decided to pack my desk. realise i got a new cupboard under my desk! lol. beta. pack my space clean. cos i keep munchin on the cookies n stuff scare got ants. den i clear table alr, audrea ask me to pack the files n stuff again, taught me laminatin the documents n stuff.(: so cool can! i don understand how the laminatin stuff work. but only know it's damn cool! hahaha. den after tat stare at my 2nd in charge do his work. cos i was really damn bored. den i think he cant take it. so i went back to my seat surf net awhile den went to pack goodie bag n try out the overall. WOAH! the overall is SO OVERSIZED. lol. it's like L size can. when i wear skool one XS oso very big alr. den i look like toddler tryin mummy's clothing. the managers keep laughin at me. but no choice got to put it on tmr!cos goin PSA ship visit! WEE!!~~~~~ so happy n excited for tmr~~

i realise ar. i'm quite the cut to do office job man. i kind of like the style working in gulf oil marine. (: it's damn fun. oh ya, office job kinda bz, din really text ppl. unless really urgent.working really, really kills time damn quickly.

my arm has been hurtin. argh. tmr goin the xray alr. hope everything will turn out right. xS good night(:

sage

exam.

2010-02-26T01:18:00.003+08:00

fuck this exam man. had been studyin wid suxin ros they all almost everyday. was so stressed. little did i know tat i was so uptight n got stomach cramp started ytd afternoon. thru out my engineering mech paper was suffering. den had dinner wid ros jonathan sunye(mighty mentor) n suxin whom join us later n i went home wid. felt really bad when i got home. bath n den slept. hoping it'll go away the next day. SHIT.

it din! tis morning i struggled to get up from my bed took my clothin went to bath. the cramp got from bad to worse. after i came out from the bathroom, i had to struggle back to my room. felt uncomfortable wid the wet hair. blew dry it. WOW. tat was den my cramp almost kill me. i started to cold sweat. clean n dry clothin was like wet again. i pain till couldnt even sit down properly on sofa. i called my parents n jie. den call suxin told her i couldnt meet her. den rest awhile i struggle to the clinic by cab. i couldnt even walk short distance. the cab uncle actually made a small u-turn so i can alight outside the clinic for shorter distance walk. when i enter the clinic i blank out. cold sweat n black out. how sweet. the nurse use the clinic blanket to cover me n brought me to doc for injection without registering. den after i had the injection, i had to register n all. stay at clinic to rest awhile den headed home. rested on sofa. finally daddy mummy came back to my rescue. they ask me go their room sleep. den mummy on air con den daddy cover blanket for me. den they oso fell asleep beside me. haha sleep for super long.. think got at least 4 hours den they went to buy food for me. den feed me my medicine. den i went back sleep.

NOW, i'm studyin my damn electronics.

sage

valentine

2010-02-18T02:13:00.002+08:00

a little chat wid my brother kevin about my guide line for bf cos he said i needed some love. lol! den i thot him be my bf not easy need these... :

i don wan smoker bf

my bf can drink but nv smoke

mus exercise but cannot be over gym-ed

mus be funny but not clown

no need be handsome but at least look-able.

mus know how to drive

mus be taller den 175

[c=13]kevin 280409 †[/c] says:

LOL

mafan sia u

lol

-s.age says:

...

mus not be over sized

[c=13]kevin 280409 †[/c] says:

LOL

-s.age says:

mus not be my clique de

[c=13]kevin 280409 †[/c] says:

u didnt say that earlier

lol

then how i know whos out of ur clique!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

[c=13]kevin 280409 †[/c] says:

lol

exactly

i dunno who

lol

-s.age says:

hahahha

[c=13]kevin 280409 †[/c] says:

anyone la

got valentine bettet than dun have ah

lol

busy new year

2010-02-18T01:42:00.003+08:00

a very busy new year. did lots of stuff.. hmm but cant really rmb wat i did exactly. jus rmb i've been drinkin like so many days in a row. D: bad bad. hm.. let me talk about today den, something i rmb more clearly. woke up n did mask, relax on sofa cos was havin headache. den i jus rot till 2 plus start to wash up n get ready to go out. cos meeting gfs n their bf at 3pm at PS. haha. meet suxin at amk 1st. den trained to PS tgt. wore heels, thot mine was high, suxin one made her the giffra of the day. haha bing n her wore the same shoes, den we were like sayin why not me n jane go buy den 4 of us wear too. LOL, so tall, scare my ankle cant take it. hmmm.wehn we reach PS, me n suxin took lift, something hilarious happened. shall not say much about it as it was quite paiseh.den meet the peeps at arcade. played awhile den went to watch movie. " valentine's day ", was kinda nice but draggy movie.. haha overall was okay i guess, den we walk around abit ate at xin wang cafe. walk around again.. den headed to suxin hse to pay a visit. haha. played card games there. den play till 11 plus kevin they all left. so left me, xuebing, yongsheng there. decided play marjong. den play till 12.35, my dajie called me rush me home by 1am! we faster finish our game n settle wat we gain n loss, den i wore my heels n run out to cab wid suxin bro's friend. really mus mention i wan to thank him for joggin down all the way wid me. thank thank(: thought he'll not see but jus wan to express the thot. hmm, den i finally reach home by 12.53am. phew~ bath n stuff. suppose to be restin but my heart pumpin so hard for the joggin jus now. havent jog wid sports shoes for months.. let alone heels. woah. power.(:

cupid cupid, wonder who will be shot by ur arrow next so soon.

sage.

hot n cold lyrics

2010-02-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hot N Cold lyrics

Songwriters: Gottwald, Lukasz; Martin, Max; Perry, Katy;

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

Yeah, you change your mind like a girl I would know

And you always think, always speak cryptically

I should know that you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right

You're black and it's white

We fight, we break up

We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no

But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot and you're cold

You're yes then you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync

The same energy now's a dead battery

Used to laugh 'bout nothing, now you're plain boring

I should know that you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right

You're black and it's white

We fight, we break up

We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no

But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor

Got a case of a love disorder

Stuck on a roller coaster

Can't get off this ride

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right

You're black and it's white

We fight, we break up

We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no

But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold

You're yes and you're no

You're in and you're out

You're up and you're down

tired!

2010-02-06T12:49:00.002+08:00

almost 26 hours without sleep. woah how does that feels.. i would say it suck. i'd get agitated over smallest thing. just reach home, jus had a warm shower but not tired alr. not really used to sleep in the day.

ytd, meet yuhan and louis at yishun to pass them bagua.

den went off to tiong bahru to meet eng siong. he went over to buy movie tix first. den reach there alr, still early. den he accompany me to eat long john sliver. den went for movie, "MY EX". haha. was scared at first but slowly found it wasnt tat scary after all, is the very loud sound effect tat is scaring me. lol. after movie we went to yakun for drink. he ate toast meal, den we were like casual talkin cos i haf almost 2 hours to work. haha. chit chatted till we forget time. was almost late for work.

haha den went to work till 11 plus head off to dad's shop to tend his shop overnight till jus come home. SO TIRED!!!!

it's really cool to meet someone u havent meet for very long..(: sweet to talk about the old memories.

sage

messy!

2010-02-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

was too lazy to blog ytd. lol. ytd after class, meet suxin and ros go lib watch dvd, The Messenger. LOL, cos the room was occupied, so we sat at the couples seats. pull one more chair share the ears phone. haha. ROS DON DARE WATCH! hahahaha. so cute. den i was waiting for yongcheng come find me pass me something too. den i forget switch my phone to silent. den at the exciting part my phone suddenly RANG! lol. we all jump up. haha. den is yongcheng text me. den he came up to 3rd level. jus nice we all need to go off alr. so he pass me the present he bought for me from vietnam. he told me he gonna buy me my tea!! but he bought me a nice scarf.(: THANKS STUDY BUDDY! i love the present! aprreciate the effort.(: went off to my aunt's hse to take my karate gee. den went home. woah. went reach home head was kinda spinning. in the end wid engsiong's encouragement i din go karate class.WAHAHAH. stayed at home rest.

today, thot would be late for class. rush off forget take louis n yuhan's bagua. LOL. rush to skool den louis was like look at me. wth, i drove to skool today...HAHAHAHA. D: was damn ps. today yuhan louis they all super shuai. (: den after ms cathy's class, louis drove jamond, yuhan n me to vivo for lunch. hehe. den on the way back i feel asleep. haha. den went for class.. went to dad's shop help out n back. oh my. feel so tired. don feel like goin tmr's class. but need pass them the bagua. sian..

took lots of foto today!! will upload into fb(:

today everyone look so smart n handsome n pretty in formal wear.(: we've took another step towards our future. sigh, poly is goin to be over so soon.

hope tmr will be a beta day(:

sage

for what goes around, comes about.

2010-02-02T21:27:00.003+08:00

darn. wat a day. woke up in the morning, head was freakin pain. den i decide to sleep awhile more to see if it'll go away den mayb will be able to make it for the noon workshop. when i woke up tis time head n throat SUPER sore. urgh. so i din go to skool, went to see doc instead. throat infection. den follow my sis go my dad shop for food. den after i took medicine in front of him, was sent back home to rest. slept for like hours. which seems so short to me. den woke up went to meet aaron n xiaozhao. went suki sushi. i did something i felt super guilty of. i sick i still drink sia.den walk whole big round home. feel so bad now. like throat burning eh. sigh guess jus haf to rest more. sleepin early tonight. :(

heard tis sentence from someone: " for what goes around, comes about."

when i heard of it was shock, it kind of knock some sense into me. sometimes, ppl jus haf to believe in reciprocating of stuff. how u treat ppl, is how ppl will treat u back. of cos, not all the times.but i do believe even if they still nv treat u back the same way, jus continue to treat them how good u used too, mayb they'll see ur hard work n treat u good after tat.

these days, felt weird. but decide jus live days as it is. perhaps, it'll be beta. jus live it quietly n follow the crowd. everyone might be happier tat way.

sage

29012010:(

2010-01-29T23:55:00.003+08:00

wat a day. today was smooth at the start, went class, went swimming all tat were happy. until something happen. but nvm, will face everything wid a smile. i'm bullet-proof tis time. wont be shot. wont be hurt. i'm glad i can say tis.

waited for msg for whole day, xuebing told me to jus text, n den u'll know the reply. even daniel said tat. HM, yes i did. i jus got the reply. hm.. okay. kinda disappointin but nvm. haha

engsiong text me instead, haha. talk to him quite abit told him will buy him CHAO TA BAO for his birthday. hehehehe tho he say he like barbie doll n mian bao cao ren more. hahaha!

helped dad today. so bz. so tired, YAWNS.

sage

28-01-10(:

2010-01-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

sigh, how how how how!!! i jus said confidently i kick the habit of keep textin ppl. but today i din text i keep checkin my hp see if i receive msg. though i know i wont receive. but i jus keep checkin hopin to receive. wat am i doin.. oh my. i don like tis ait. i said i would kick tat habit. mayb i should keep myself more bz. more bz den i will forget about msgin. yes tat would do... yes it would. i hope it would.

today was my ah ma's bday celebration. haha took lots of foto, but i din eat cos throat begin to sore. till don feel like eati den aunt said i was havin fever told me to ea panadol. ahh. nv eat food wat medicine means ... GASTRIC PAIN. freak tat gastric pain. in skool, was okay, jus tat was late for skool again. think ms cathy was quite upset of me. but i was really tired, over slept. hm.. den went for lab test, woah, die. think i fail, cos my oscilloscope like abit sot cos i keep switchin btw ac n dc den the graph went crazy. lol. den went to meet my erjie for food. but din eat much.

oh my, i today keep nagging at ppl. nag at suxin in skool..cos she was sick..den she say nanny nag at ppl for ppl's on good. den after tat nag at chenjie. LOL cos he keep skippin skool told him to resist temptation. haha, he told me to go get bf to nag at so wont nag at him. haha. oh my, becoming nanny alr.den chenjie start to intro me guys..ahh.. no la.. single now is good..jus nice for me..

sage

happy me(:

2010-01-27T22:43:00.003+08:00

woah, today's karate class was great. other than doin the basic, we were instructed to do physical exercise! hehehehe, did a total of 100 push up, 100 krunches, 100 squads. weee~~xD so long since i really exercise so cool!!! wahaha

ytd was random again, a senior of mine , keng leong, from my sec skool talk to me on msn, It is like so long since we last chatted!!! really man, miss the times where we train for npcc drills all tat. hide one corner see him play soccer all tat. haha, so fun. really miss the life. so care free. (: we talk from i think 9 plus till 2 am like tat man, den after tat still got text.lol. so long since i talk to a close sec skool friend about sec skool life. hmm..(:

i'm happy wid my life now. really happy(:

sage

my weekend.

2010-01-24T21:56:00.003+08:00

haha, had a busy yet great weekend. enjoyed every day of it. (:

putting on mask now, tat one zhao bought for me. think of it. so long nv talk to her properly alr. sigh, but nvm! haha i will find time again.

so weird, sherwin text me jus now& we manage to catch up abit thru sms. haha, so long nv text him alr. hey boy. wat to say but.. U'RE SUPER RANDOM. haha.

really used to not haf hp along wid me every where i go now. i can receive a text msg at 12pm & only realise at 6pm man! on my, really gettin very used to tis bad habit! haha.but it's kind of good too. means i got things to do to occupy my time.lol

sage

2010-01-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

i once heard, a million of lies become truth in ppl's mind.

i oso heard, time will reveal human's true nature.

i heard, actions speaks louder den words.

i wont whine anymore.

i wont bother.

i keep quiet.

shh.

normal day, went to skool, study&play in class. meet bing a while during lunch, went workshop, bus-ed home wid isaac. saw cipher at amk. went to hub to do some stuff. went home. rest awhile, went dinner hot pot wid pa, ma & dajie. so long since we went there. den bought shoes at the golden mile plaza.came home. home sweet home. (: sage

2010-01-18T20:15:00.006+08:00

had a great day. suppose to..

went to class, was late again though but had a great time in class, meet xuebing suxin & ros they all cos had to pass suxin money. den went back to class. till after skool i keep playin n playin.went home wid suxin since we take same bus. den she accompany go eat kfc.den went back aunt's hse. watch tv till i fell asleep.woke up at 8plus.

den i should haf known bad things follow after good. for all years such things still happens. but nvm not goin to care since i din do such things.i know i still haf u gals wid me no matter wat. tat's very important to me.cos u all trust me. thanks.don know wat else to say but love u gals!!! haha.to me, you gals aint jus any friends tat i can forget & leave easily.really.

thanks for trusting me.

sage

better tomorrow.

2010-01-17T21:06:00.007+08:00

wat a weekend. LOL, tis crazy weekend i was busy. really busy.fri, after class meet xuebing n kevin. went to library & watch "home alone" while waitin for ros. 12plus when suxin n ros came, we startin eatin & do abit of project while talkin & playin. damn enjoyable! after tat went for lab. lecturer talk about oversea itp. me maysiew& jieliang was super excited. keep talkin & talking. till end of lab.iz & duwi accompany me to amk!~ we went popeye to eat then walk to my hse there sit down chit chat.(:.ytd i repaint 2 of my hse door! waited them to dry still do second coatin.wahaha. my jie say very nice!(: of cos i choose the paint, i buy, i paint. not nice i'll curse man! hehe. den today i fixed my hse tap which was leakin since don know when & noone cares. spend like don know how long squading there. think was before my jie off to work till she come back, so tired man! i'm the engineer at home! weak little gal outside or in skool, as wat they see me k. not i anyhow say. hahahahhaha.i feel so man.

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suxin ros & xuebing super nice sia. suxin & ros asked me about online purchasin of stuff. feel so in a group.(: den jus now i textbing ask about her astro club thing. see if i can join it now. go there see stars all tat, cos i'm interested. she said YES! wah, i feel like best month ever man!! so long since i had really nice friends around me. i'm thankful, thankful for having friends like the gals. (: gals, i hope no matter wat we'll be there for one another.thanks for seeing me as one of u gals. (:

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yes, 2010 is a good year.

i'm looking forward to every tmr nowadays. cos i know tmr will be beta!(:

sage

laughters

2010-01-14T21:05:00.004+08:00

was reluctant to wake up tis morning, but din wan to miss Ms cathy's class. woke up, bath, saw dirty&smelly little hagen bath him, den feed him alr went out to skool. thot would be late,saw lecturer inside lift. LOL, she's late.

skool, break, talk to fyp group, class, lab &home.

went to register for my karate class alr. hope it'll be fun n worth it's cost. (:

i jus hate the way u tear, it's not like u cry u'll win. in my thots, cryin doesnt make u the winner. it makes u look like a sore loser. i spent so much time groomin u, look after u, & teach u all the morals. Yet, u always act like a loser in front of adults makin me be ur scapegoat for watever u do. fine, very fine. pls don expect me to scream at u again. watever u do, i'll jus keep quiet let u be. i'm jus so disappointed in u.

talk to a friend tat din talk for very long. so refreshing. like wat ever happen in the past, the memories jus flash back,jus so new.thinking about the past, i did stupid stuff, don know how to hide feelings. wat's over is over, history wont repeat itself. i wont do those stuff again.i've learnt friends are jus meant to be friends. no use forcing.(:

OH YA! promise ahmad would blog about the workshop on tues. lol tues, workshop last lesson of bench. haha! so fun. was suppose to repair tubular type heat exchanger. den 6 in a group i think.

got ahmad, jamond, aaron, guojian, jieliang n me.

haha, cos the screw was super tight den we were having difficulty in releasing it, someone needs to sit on the heat exchanger den use extent-ion to release it, ahmad suddenly turn to me say baby elephant go sit on it. den i was like HUH. baby elephant. LOL. den while doin lots of names came out. like brother elephant, elephant family. all weird weird de came out.HAHA!

wed, fax the navy declaration form at singpost. OMG, damn ex, each page cost $3.21.~.~ i fax 3 pages.so broke.

den today at lab, my partner jamond oso damn cute. HAHA. he turn to be & suddenly say " beep beep" . i shouted loudly " road runner OMG" HAHAHAHAHA. super hilarious.i laughed non-stop.den lecturer kept looking at me.

i realised, i laugh alot tis days. simple little things from my friends make me happy the whole day. like today talk to xuebing, rosalyn, suxin &yenru. bing & suxin said i could meet them for shoppings & all. woah, my heart felt warm, i actually was touched, not like i don haf friends den find them.. is jus no matter when they still treat me as friends. i felt really sweet..thanks gals.(:

sage

say NO to bad habits

2010-01-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

(: say NO to bad habits!

i think i've kick some of my bad habits!(: i no longer feel like texting ppl. nor feel weird not smsing. (: power ba. think about last time i cant stand not texting ppl at all. now i lazy to even look at phone. or bring it around wid me. i no longer feel lost even if i don contact my friends or whoever. i can disappear for awhile & come back. i enjoy it!

woah, lots to do for fyp. kinda stressed up by lots of thing. really needa buck up! jiayou!

sage

my 1st post in 2010

2010-01-12T23:13:00.005+08:00

ah, how funny is tis,

after so long,

so big round,

thinking so much,

being thru lots,

1st post in 2010

is bcos i'm too bored,

nth to do.

hm, things started all over again.

single life, refreshed..(i suppose).(:

adapting good, back to my old life.

friends, skool, fam, cat, projects, report.

start my fyp discussion alr.

some break down in communication lead to some argument.

but it's okay alr.

phew,

feel like taking up bjj.

talk to stanley n aaron bout it..

wah, so tempting, even told my sis.

she immediately say: wah, cant u jus be normal once. LOL.

for studies,

i moved back to my aunt's hse.

for hagen,

i go back everyday.

for fam,

i call back everyday.

for me,

i try to sleep early everyday.

still thinks i should start adoring myself a bit more.

2009-09-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

(ps: i'm yours,you're mine. This a promise we won't forget.)

2009-09-12T20:24:00.009+08:00

watch 3 movies in 2 days(:

aliens in attic, gamers & beth cooper, i love you.

fridays was a lovely day for me..

work, after tat went china town wid xiaoyan.den trained to boonlay to find yj.

walk around awhile as i was early. jurong point is very big! but i went to a book store on basement.spent an hour plus there. read books n browse thru some magazines.

[ DAN BROWN'S new book : THE LOST SYMBOL will be release on the 15th sept!!!!YAY!!!~]

den meet yj, had dinner tgt at long john sliver( AGAIN!). den watch movie, after tat we train home.

saturday(today) was fun(:

breakfast cum lunch tgt wid vern n dajie. den bus-ed to amk hub meet yj.LOL i was late. den went for movie.after movieS. walk to buy nice milk tea, den to bishan park2. initial plan was to go there to play swing. but swing was occupied by kids.den yj sat down watch ppl play soccer.( those uncles playin at open field next to the playground ). very dangerous, almost hit the kids quite a few times. yj keep sayin the uncles play very lousy.LOL, we chit chat abit, see here n there a while, enjoy the breeze awhile den we walk off for dinner. actually is he hungry la. i sat down at coffee shop watch him eat. after tat accompany him to bus stop to take bus home.

not much off activities, no special or extraordinary ones. but it's amazing day, cos we did those things tgt.(: often it's the simplest things tat we often missed out,stays in our memories. just like today, and ytd.(:

when a lion falls for a cow, 1 month 12 special days.

2009-09-09T22:12:00.026+08:00

busy days.

today,

suppose to work, but was havin bad cramp.. din manage to climb put of my bed to go to work.rot on sofa whole morning till noon when my erjie came back, went lunch wid her.den accompany her go for her pedi & manicure. den went home to change to meet aaron&zhao for dinner at chomp chomp. had a fun night.(:really fun. a very happy day!(:

was talkin to yenru on msn, this paragraph came to my mind:

relationship is about compromisin wid each other..

willing to give in n willin to put in effort to make the rls happy, stable&lovin one..

if u really like tat person.. u wont really mind even if he is totally opposite of wat u like.even if he is not good lookin, not pretty, haf atrocious attitude or even is handicap.cos i believe love is blind.

when a lion fall in love with a cow, 1 month 10days. sage

2009-09-08T23:50:00.017+08:00

wasn't in a good mood.pms perhaps. laughing point was auto adjusted to lowest. so i can try make myself happier.

morning, text yj a few, went back to sleep.

woke up to go for breakfast wid erjie.den go work. on my way to work text weeboon(ah boon) to see if he's on his way too in the end....... he jus got up!!HAHA. den kind of chatted via sms throughout the train ride till reach work place.went to cold storage b4 goin workplace though. was trying to find sketchbook n colour pencils. had the sudden crave to draw again. how long was it since i drew drawings? not after i finish my o level art paper i think. din really wan to draw as it kind of bring me back to bad memories. was a surprise to me tat i wan to draw again. but i couldnt find any in cold storage. ask whether ah boon know any place near somerset selling sketchbook.don know why in the end we came to an agreement tat he will walk wid me to carrefour during break time.haha!

started working, jus keep cleaning n cleaning. den xiaoyan arrived followed by ah boon. LOL. the jokes of the day tat kind of kept me happy throughout was from ah boon.cos he don like the full timer worker there.den jus nowshe don understand eng. he keep badmouthing her to me in eng softly. make me roar into laughters. n got once i couldnt help it but accidentally spit onto his face.LOLS. i laugh till buay tahan. during break he really walk wid me to ps. den went daiso n i saw JOJO there!! wah.haha.such an coincidence man.. den went back to workplace. i started sketchin.while they all sleep. text xiaozhao abit,cos she was free..den went to buy dessert.cos was thinkin eat something sweet makes someone happier. din help much..work again, start cleaning n cleaning again. den after tat me xiao yan n ah boon cam whore. LOL. damn funny.den ah boon's bad mouthing jokes started again. den customers came in..very bz..till night. i realise it was late, online using hp awhile, was hopin to talk to yj online, but he told me he need to go offline alr..den yeaps. i offline too. den text xiaozhao..she say something make me calm down..den work work work.till 11pm..go home.

absence makes a heart grows fonder.

but how true?

sage

2009-09-02T23:56:00.004+08:00

argh, very tired.

but just cant sleep.

went to help bernard san for tis 2 days, ytd n today. super busy. the table turnover rate very fast.me n xiaoyan was practically rushing thru the orders.

ytd

Mr teh came, a customer i know somehow for 2 years, he has been trying to ask me drink sake since i'm 16, i always used i'm underage as excuse. but ytd i couldn't escape. had to drink one third of a cup. the burning sensation was like flow down to my stomach which cos my gastric to hurt. took cab home, was kind of tipsy, it was the 1st time for me to drink so much of sake! i couldnt sleep cos of the burning sensation in my stomach. was told to drink milk to ease it. den i fell asleep.

today

woke up for breakfast wid my sister, den rush to work.

2 jokes of the night tat kept me happy..

1st from weeboon, another part timer helpin bernard san. i text him n ask whether he is coming over today. (edited)

sage: boon!! you coming today?

boon: nope. goin out today.

sage: EH! sian, thot could haf someone my age to talk to.

boon: i can drop by during the break though, bring hard boil egg for u.

sage: why hard boil egg?! i thot should be something beta, like apple pie!

boon: HAHA, only can think of it, cos the other time u had strong cravin for it durin work.

sage: OMG, tat's like damn long ago can!

boon: yea. but hard to forget, cos noone like u had tat strong cravin for eggs during work.

sage.LOL

den during break, i was too tired, everyone was. we all slept n when weeboon came, noone open the door for him.LOL!!!!

2nd joke.

Dr Ting: sage, u know what ur name means?

sage: yea, purple herb or rather purple flower.

Dr Ting: Nah, it means holy, wise man.... don be angry but tell u something true, u don suit the name.. know why??

sage: ........why???

Dr Ting: you don look like old man to me, u look like fairy. you should haf something fairytale like name.

sage: ... =.=

Dr Ting: don worry, i will think of one for u!!!

HAHAHAH, i couldn't help but jus keep laughin..oh ya, a foto i took b4 work..

when a lion falls for a cow, 33days.

i miss you my dear.

2009-08-28T18:14:00.006+08:00

what am i doing?

what are you doing , xueling?

what the hell am i doing to myself?

to tell the truth i have no idea.

i keep asking myself why i still feel so sad when someone scold me? i thought i would have been used to it. having those sarcasm told face to face, been a temper venting point. it should have been nothing to me, isn't it? i should have got used to it long long time ago. i shouldn't have been the chatter box perhaps. being the clown that think of ways to try to please everybody, but actually pissing them off.i should just learn to shut up n don't comment.cause the comments given,to them, are just rubbish. passing comments you said unintentionally are just craps.making them pissed off. No one takes it to heart anyway, why bother speaking up in the first place. waste my own saliva, my effort thinking way to phrase it properly, trying to please them.perhaps i shouldn't have exist, this heart breaking little fact to me might be happy news to some others. make their life easier. i thought if only i treat them the way i want them to treat me, i will be happier, they might be happier. but it's just crap. deep in me long knew, there ain't such stuff. no matter how good you treat the person, the person won't be able to treat you as well.cos they tends to take you for granted or maybe you don weight a gram in their heart. life ain't fair. i knew it long ago. never mind, it's no longer important. i will learn to just leave with what i am left with, my little pride i'm still left with, and learn to shut up don't give comments.

sage

when a lion falls for a cow, 28 days.

2009-08-27T20:05:00.008+08:00

it's the thoughts that counts,

often it's the little actions,

smallest efforts which in total created the biggest impact.

this sentence came across my mind when i reach home n found an big big brown envelope on my desk.i saw the present julien mail to me. the card she drew on her own, the words she wrote, hm..a bag from esprit by shone n ed gorgor.(: i would say, it's lucky for a friend to remember ur bday, fortunate to receive one present. i am super lucky n fortunate for friends to remember n even celebrate my bday wid me!(:

all i can say is, i'm fortunate to know them n haf them. i will cherish them as much as they cherish me.. love ya all!

ytd, i helped my dad to dye his hair, i realised he is really getting older la..

last time, he used to be so handsome n had black silky hair..ytd, i saw grey hair.. a sudden emotion stuck me, heart felt kinda heavy.

yet, at night, i saw something tat touched my heart to the fullest. my dad din was off the dye properly n had some dye on his ears. he din realise it, n was mock at by my mum. i thot she would jus walk off to kitchen to find her food. but, she came back wid a wet towel in her hand, she start helpin my dad wipe the dye off his ears gently.

tat scene, i thot will only be seen in tv, i saw it real life.

when a lion falls for a cow, honey coated 27 days.(:

sage

2009-08-24T20:40:00.003+08:00

it'll be instrumentation paper tmr, right now, i'm bloggin instead of muggin. i jus don haf the freakin mood to study.. aint feelin well since like sat i think. cant really rmb when alr. havin the headache i always have, the sleepless night as usual. i feel bad. guilty for not studyin but i cant help it. really none of the things can go into my mind. i jus wan to play n play. n deep in me know tat playin now means failing n everything negative. but i jus cant help it.damn it.

sage

2009-08-19T21:59:00.003+08:00

thanks for all the birthday wishes(: yes, i did enjoy my day to the fullest.haha

chaotic morning.

actual plan was that i suppose to meet wenshou n zhao hearty in skool at 0930 for breakfast and meet yj at 1030 at cck. den follow by day plan.

but they overslept. so they plan changed to. the four of us meet at outram at 10plus 11. den go for breakfast cum lunch at chinatown. den we went seperate ways. me n yj trained down to ps, went cathay to catch the movie , district9(my first M18 show!!!). HAHA. the person din even check our ic man. means we look old?! argh.

after movie we walk walk in ps awhile den went to find present.. damn paiseh to choose the lady keep lookin at us. den meet my 2nd sis accompany her do some stuff. she treat us swensen. HEEX. the food not bad!! den train to orchard , fareast wid jie to remove her extension.after tat me n yj stroll back to ps to meet wenshou,xiaozhao n cipher for dinner. actually i was too full to eat. i sat there to listen to gossips all tat. den chit chat awhile, den we all trained home. a simple day but meant alot to me.(: it isnt how much money we spent, how much activities we did. it is the fact tat i spend it wid ppl tat love me.

zhao hearty, thanks for the flower, the noodle tat u cooked for me, the card n all the effort u put in to make me happy. u're truly a sweet gal.

yj, thanks for the pleasant day. i like in fact love the present u let me choose. i will cherish it.(:

to all my dear friends.. thanks for making my day such a wonderful one.

[ wenshou, cipher, all the other buddies, besties and all.]

when a lion fell for a cow, 19 loving days.

i adore you.

2009-08-18T21:35:00.003+08:00

a few hours from my birthday, how is the feeling like?

18 years old, another stage of my life. how exactly does it feels?

i ain't really sure.. cos for the past 17 years.. i don really celebrate it.

when i'm young, my birthday would be a day that my aunt bring me n my 2 cousins by bicycles to mac nearby, 2 set of happy meals n 3 of us share.

when i'm in sec skool, my birthday would mean exams nearby, study harder.or mayb receive a present or 2. oh ya, dinner wid family the next day to celebrate mum's bday too.

my poly year one, it means EXAMS. wth..

this year poly year2 n things seems to change.

havin xiaozhao, yj they all around me..telling me to get used to the change as they would be there for me starting from now onwards.

it jus make me tear.

i've nv felt so cherished till den.

i guess this friendship is a kind of drug, a fatal seduction that i cant get off the hook.

when a lion fell for a cow, 18 sweet days.

2009-08-15T13:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIES~ WISH U GUYS HAF A GOOD TIME. (:

erm, very chaotic weeks. don know how it passed so smoothly. had my instrumentation lab test,gems test, tanker fam ica, auto cad ica and preparation for mmit ica next week.completed maths pbl. next week will be having mmit ica. AND next week is oso the STUDY week. ): time flies man.after next week,

25aug09 - instrumentation - 1230-1440- T1A52

27aug09 - applied thermodynamic - 1600-1840 - T1A51

31aug09 - engineering maths- 1600-1810 - T1A65

AHHH. after tat will be holidays. yj they all havin itp. den i don know wat to do. mayb learn drivin, meanwhile go help daddy ba. nth much to do man.

when a lion fell for a cow. 2 weeks and a day.

2009-08-07T19:52:00.004+08:00

a very happy week. time passes so fast. it has been a week! (:

exams coming. ARGH. it's time to start studyin!

when a lion fell for a cow.

2009-08-03T20:22:00.029+08:00

monday. meet ain to go to skool tis morning.(: late for class but when we reach i got listen in class k! haha, den went to library watch a movie " Mrs Doubtfire ". WAH super touchin. i cried. =.= den went late for tanker fam class. after a while went off. went to find yj n zhao they all at t15. they were doin their project there. den i sat there listen to them discuss.haha.after tat went off wid yj. actually suppose to go home but when we reach ps, some how we jus decided to alight n go watch movie.LOL. den yea after movie, cousin called me to meet her for dinner. den went thai express for dinner. den went guardian n walk walk abit to see wat to buy as present for mummyS' bday.

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haha. sunday.. found hagen outside my hse. den my dad told me, he found hagen strugglin under a peice of wood. den he carry it back. poor hagen had a hip n for arm n lung n chin injury. doc say he cannot walk for 6 days to prevent further injury. see it stuck inside small cage very sad uh. :( den after takin it to vet, vern n me went to peiyee's hse slack. n wait for dajie to fetch us.

2009-08-01T14:18:00.003+08:00

MY SATURDAY

i woke up at 8 again.yawns. don know why everyday wake up so early.erm. den i wash up n sat on sofa see my mother walk about in the living room.i online but apparently no one was awake.haha. jus stone there till my nephew came back from his breakfast wid gor. mum switch on tv for him so i sat there watch kid's programme wid him.so long since i watch pokemon.DAMN cute! hahah. den i online again. was damn bored n tired jus couldnt sleep.=.= don know why. den saw yj n aaron they all started one by one online. chat wid yj on phone. (: an hour plus. the time like flies lo. when i started chattin on phone i look at clock was like 1245 like tat when i hang up is like goin 2 alr. after tat i fell asleep finally. woke up at 4 plus goin 5. went for lunch. back home. den did hse chores again!!! i think all my sister n me mus go for hair treatment alr. drop so much hair.AND i realise my cat ran away from home.SHATS. first dus, now hagen. i don haf hagen n dus alr. left wid dusty n blackie cat.wth. nvm. i guess tis is animal instinct ba. run away from my hse little devil tat always come back during weekend to force them sleep.LOL. MR. LAVERN AW's fault la. hahaha.my nephew always bully them.see run away alr. nvm actually as long as they are happy n living. i'm content. pray hard for them to be safe n sound wherever they are. later meetin fer take something.(: so long nv meet her alr. excited!!!!! erm.. meanwhile vern was watchin some lame kids' VCD my jie bought for him. OMG. the characters inside damn funny.

*************************************************** i had a very special friday. really. haha.

went for movie, marina barrage wid yj n after tat meet zhao, wenshou, aaron, weiliang, ryan n his gf,melissa at bugis for steamboat n dessert .(: nice. after tat train home. heex, happy day for me.

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the thursday night when i couldnt sleep.was chattin to zhao on msn web cam. (: i love web camin wid her.HAHA. actually took an unglam foto of her.but shall not post up la.hahaha.love her la! she always accompany me till later night. sage

2009-07-26T22:18:00.003+08:00

The night is still young. a happening day. very happening. skool,meet wenshou aaron n my cousin peiyee go queensway, shoppin.LOL wenshou n aaron super entertaining.make me laugh non stop. n den after my cousin left, we continue shop n everywhere reminds me of yj .saw the levis shirt n kappa shirt really his style.hm, den bought wenshou his birthday present which he wore it immediately.(: den after tat headed home.took bus 93 n walk to my hse. treat them drink bubble tea. n we crap non stop. i love today. haha, took pic while they walk me home thru the dark bishan park. had a great time.(: i smile, cos i realise how much i'm loved. sage ************************************************************************************

2009-07-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

2cups of Bacardi knockin me out.

was wondering if i were to disappear for a while..what will ever happen.

sage

2009-07-25T23:00:00.032+08:00

MON&TUES i don rmb wat happen sia. short term memory..=.= wed, MC again. went ikea wid erjie n gor gor. WAH spend 500+ on furniture.den after tat went for family dinner. erjie keep sayin me n dajie wear specs look alike. den deicided take some foto. (: daddy n mummy din wan join in, den i take secretly. :P haha THURSDAY,after my autocad class, went to xiaozhao n yj n ws their class when walkin to MRT station to withdraw money, saw yj,jeremy n cipher there.LOL so qiao can. den jeremy they all go smoke, yj n me walk to their classroom.they were havin engineerin maths lesson. crashed it. did some maths prob too. tingwei helped me ALOT.haha.after class went for poly50 training. SO DAMN TIRING.=.= bathe in skool. den go home change den sleep alr. hahaha. FRIDAY again, while havin instrumentation, as usual wid isaac sitiing beside me, i draw on his table.HAHA. my master piece. damn fun can.den the lecturer keep starin at us. but who cares. LOL after accompany zhao buy starbucks for her bf n lost our way thru out, we finally sat down for anston at suntec. den meanwhile while i was staring into the space, she was msgin thru out. den decided take some foto of her. SEE she so XIN FU!(: hahaha. me n zhao so bored till we walk walk around den bought the same ring for ourselves. the aunty even thot we 2 are tgt as couple. LOL lo. jus bored la. den i call chenglong to ask where is he.. jokingly told him to come n find me at suntec after his class........ chenglong came down to suntec to find me man! he was at woodlands can. den we train down back to yck to meet denise, chooichi they all to visit YCKSS. talk to MR tan, hear him complain, comment and praise us. (: actually tat moment i kinda miss the old days there. haha. after tat went pizza hut wid them(: VERY FULL. haha. i look up n stare at the sky, the clouds reminded me how comfortable ur hug were.i don know why but how i wished, u were there for me at tat very moment.i miss u. sage

2009-07-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

the morning was disaster. why? COS i am freakin sick. din feel like talkin or wat so ever. i was quiet, partly bcos i don haf voice.. D: i don wan to be sick, yejie , xiao zhao, wenshou ALL sick. zhao n ws recovering fast. yj jiayou jiayou!! recover fast!! den we organise outin to go watch the horror tgt!! (:(:

my routine of the day was. sleep n missed my engineering maths lecture, went to skool for autocad, went to meet zhao n wenshou.den went back skool for mmit. den meet wenshou train home. when reach home rest awhile. went out to eat. GALS' talk wid my 2 jiejie in the car. WAH power. 1st time in my life..enjoy it. wasnt really feelin well. sore throat, n i swear it's damn sore. i heard a few touchin songs today.. 黑白配by fan fan, 你要的爱 by dai pei ni & 暖暖 by fish leong n some eng songs... superb. i really enjoy them. sing along while listen. kind of clear the gloomy feelin abit..(:

i miss my vinegar. i need vitamine U. sage

2009-07-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

monday blues, baby's blue.

2009-07-20T23:38:00.023+08:00

hm, usual weekend. dead bored.den monday blues sick again. no actually is havent recover. today after instrumentation went to meet wenshou to see doc. he accompany waste time. cos i forget to bring keys out so cant go home. haix. den i watch obessed wid him again den went to meet zhao for dinner.after tat we chit chat awhile cab home. i think i need a big n sincere apologise to both of them. i almost flare up n scold them sometimes i jus take things too seriously which is a part of me tat i always wan to change. ): so sorry. hearty n bestie. i cant imagine me without u all. FU*K. i feel like drinkin again. no sage no. control. in firman's children LOL. clover his bike is the wife, the helmet is child. wid my little husband at amk library cam whore.HAHA. he super cute can. haha a freakin nice book! kiss me once, kiss me twice. one of the sweet verse.(: [ A kiss is so potent bcos it sets off a chemical rush in the body tat speeds up pulse,blots out stress, increases blood flow n body temp.]+[ A kiss is the power of a atomic emotional bomb]. LOL. sage. loving you.

2009-07-17T20:53:00.003+08:00

abit of disappointment, abit of sadness, A LOT of worries. but was told not to worry..i will try not to.haha. my actual plan for today was canceled, due to unexpected causes. but i believe there will be a make up plan for tat soon.. right? HM.. care n misses; sage

2009-07-16T21:01:00.001+08:00

my heart races when i realise ur charming eyes are staring straight at my face. SAGE

2009-07-14T20:43:00.008+08:00

a really tiring day. don really know how time pass thru. till end of the day i still blur. den go home saw zhao hearty, jojo n mel along the way den meet yj train-ed home. hm, someone almost make me cry over a very small matter. probably oso bcos i very tired,den very emotional la.. but oso bcos i really care about tat thing.after tat den know is nth de. jus a joke or wat stuff. haha.den reach home do hse chores again=.= needa study for tmr's instrumentation retest so SIAN. tired.watch tv awhile. a show damn touching.. 爱要及时，没有如果。（： i stare out of my window at the beautiful starry night sky as i think of you.. sage

2009-07-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

was wondering should i go for oversea residential project. D: i thot i did alr. but eh~ sas seems to haf not update it. should i go if i haf the chance? a 2 weeks trip.HM. a normal day. bro send me to skool, den haf class as per normal jus a bit bored. den haf break. saw xuebing they all. SO LONG since i last talk to her properly. FINALLY talk to her(: den went for lesson. fell asleep in tanker fam class. den ISAAC keep scaring ppl sia. wake us up to listen in class.. after tat went for instrumentation lab. very easy lo. end early as usual. walk over to meet aaron n zhao hearty to go home. saw yj , wenshou n tingwei they all. sat there slack awhile.den went home.. don know why jus not in very high mood. jus feel so tired. cant high lo. sage

2009-07-12T20:30:00.003+08:00

woke up late. like 11 plus goin 12pm den wake up.den saw hearty's msg. after reply her, my dajie ask me to go lunch wid her. haha. washed up, went to market to eat. after tat came back home n clean up the mess in the living room. aiyo~ so messy.. den zhao n fer came my hse find me. den i change n went amk hub wid them. went there for dessert. den walk walk. bought lots of things. (: shorts n hair accessories n..... something la. den so ps can! they accompany buy. haha. after tat we went home le. walk home wid fer. text yj abit when reach home. he goin sleep again!!! WAH.. haha. he's like snorlax.. keep sleepin! whenever he haf time sleep. HAHA. okay la.. he's always sleepy.. 好想好想，好想你；好爱好爱，好爱你；我好想爱你。<3 sage

wenshou's bday

2009-07-11T22:32:00.009+08:00

oh ya oh ya!! today wenshou wear till very shuai!!!!(:

haha, woke up at 12pm tis afternoon. my mum came into my room ask if i wan join vern n her for lunch. i washed up n went out wid her to bishan. treat them lunch n bought a bag n ezlink card for my mum.den i went to my 1st time manicure n pedicure.WOW ,from me. so luxury, hahaha. really very new to me den the lady who did my nails for me was super nice too.den rush over to amk at 3 to meet yj.(: actually wanted buy wenshou present de. but had no idea wat to buy so in the end. went for my transformer movie 2nd time n yj's 5th time. like WTH right, nth beta to do.can present him a trophy for tat alr~ haha but it is really a nice show la. den as usual,good n fun time end real fast. when the show finish we were like WA so late alr. we were late for wenshou's bday celebration at chomchom.we rush to buy cake n took bus over. wasnt really slow, jus nice when we reach they found seats. after singing n wishing wenshou HAPPY BIRTHDAY, we order food. the food was nice, very VERY filling. suddenly rain. wah..actually wanted to go playground awhile de.den we took 136 to kovan. me n yj thot they goin walk walk at heartland mall awhile.. but in the end they all went there to take train home.=.= den he accompany home by bus again as usual.haha.(: i'm waiting, (: sage

2009-07-10T20:49:00.004+08:00

zhao woke me up today.i washed up n went to skool, bro send me.. but SHE WENT BACK TO SLEEP. LOL. she damn power can...mmit lesson, started dreamweavor. wah.. i missed lesson b4 tat. don haf certain page. so after today's assignment, i used 10 mins to rush out wat they did within 2 hours. DEN fairul broke his perfume in the aircon lab. WAH. is killin can. tat smell..suppose to be something nice, end up causing us to haf prob breathing.den finally when tat lesson over.. i think i smell like fairul..hm, den went for the torturin instrumentation. i failed. wtf. hm, den lesson. end alr.. i go find yj they all. they waited for me at sma bus stop.=p den bus-ed down to clementi. their gaming session.jus nice zhao reach sp. i trained back find her to take something. den went fc4 eat. talk wid mel, jo n zhao till 1 plus.. trained back find yj they all. see them play awhile den me n yj leave for movie. actually wan train to amk hub watch de. but we know sure cannot make it in time.so alighted at ps.den jus nice catch the movie tat jus started not long.phew~ haha. a nice movie.(: den train back amk for food. haha damn cute can..we walk to my hse there de coffee shop along the road. i keep askin yj to recognise wat car is which brand which model. he damn smart! all correct..den we had our dinner at coffee shop. after tat he walked me home. my erjie was at home. she wasnt feelin well. call me wait for her accompany her go eat. i sat on sofa n fell asleep till she woke me up say she wan go dinner wid her friends.HAHA.damn. i slept damn long can.hahaha. woke up n online.talk to him..plan about tmr activities n alot of things(: HEEX. yj don forget our deal ya~ i know i owe u 7 now.(: willingly owe can..i will return de!!! i'm a gal of her words.WAHAHA.opps=x self-praised.hahahahaha i made this promise. i gave u my words.(: i trust u, cos u told me trust is the fundamental. sage

2009-07-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

tis afternoon contacted zhao. finally contacted her.haha.lost contact ytd i got shock thot wat happen to her.OMG.behavin like she is my bf like tat.HAHA.actually she is my wifey no.2! fervyn is wifey no.1!oh man i miss fer babe n zhao hearty la. miss miss miss miss. nv see zhao bcos she need pei her bf.should give her time de.(:hm, rot at home the whole afternoon, den evening meet aaron for dinner.actually b4 tat promise yj to talk to him on msn. after dinner i rush home to online.luckily he nv angry. den meanwhile do hse chores. so long since i last did it. think a week or so? wah..so tiring. plan wid yj wat to do tmr. cos suppose to meet him but he got some gaming session wid his classmates. but still havent really come out wid one. jus do wat comes by la.(: den end up don know why i owe him something. eh..why ah. sage

2009-07-08T19:52:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!! i passed my engineering maths. phew. 71. i thot i would haf fail.:) yay.. hahaha. woke up at 0730 to wait for call from my bestie to let me know my result.he called but den din get it until 4 plus. cos lecturer din record my result on paper.hm, in btw yj came to find me. meet at amk hub.HE DAMN GOOD CANNNN..came all the way from dover to pei wo watch transformer 2. although it was his FOURTH time watchin it.=.= after tat walk to library to drop book den he walk me home.oh man. felt so bad tat make him walk here n there all alone. reach home , on lappy n slept on sofa again. oso alone at home. parents went m'sia. dajie went indonesia. erjie working.SO SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!den! aaron bestie msg me. LOL. tell me he goin watch transformer again.wahahaha. his 2nd time.haha good luck bud.(: a very easy day. mayb goin back skool tmr. home is really a good place to sleep but not rot. i rather go skool , go class wid friends all around.(: thanks ya MR vinegar(: sage

2009-07-07T23:34:00.015+08:00

haha,i woke up at 6am, was feelin really terrible.suppose to meet aaron bestie to go skool, but after wakin him up decided not to go skool cos really dizzy.i went back to sleep, woke up again at 11am, realise was really weak to even climb out of my bed.serious struggled for like an hour b4 i finally can climb out. wah..got a 4 days mc . down wid something even doc don know wat it was.she iniately ask me to go to hospital for blood test. but i don wan say she said 4 days rest at home don spread virus to others.den went to buy porridge. iz say i was practically running to doc n buy food cos within short time i did everything. i was home by 1pm.. den ate n watch tv doze of on sofa..went to bed room to sleep til...7plus when yejie called me.woke up till now.so tired. but not sleepy..i miss hearty, babe , besties, n vinegar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.. miss skool. i wan know my result la... :( haha, havin tank fam. everyone on my row was sleeping.hm, i jus lie down.. i was tellin daniel i like his shirt. he immediately pour cold water on me by sayin i bought it from city square.walao. nth can replace this special feeling.(:

2009-07-05T14:50:00.094+08:00

haha, a very happenin weekend. hm, shall start from thurs.went to skool early to study.meet yj at above audit tat aircon area study.really freezing place.den went for exam.haha.after paper, meet aaron at bishan actually to study but stand at a pushcart to look at the handphone pouch.decided buy a white one for my E71.(: den went to eat pizza hut.ERM.it is very filling. me n him each haf to finish 6 big slices.wth! haha couldnt finish. den we head off to library study.study awhile den no mood le.den we went to j8 walk walk awhile den went home..FRI. after paper went to meet zhao n yj n his friends. den went for lunch n went over mob. see them play wii. den zhao went off to meet her jie. i stayed wid yj they all.after tat they went clementi. they went to lan shop.. i sat there n see them play. after tat they went to amk hub wid me. stay around n hang around there till 6.. den i went to find sec skool mates to watch ice age 3. after the movie rush off to fetch my nephew. SAT. actually wanted bring him to the zoo wid fer, zhao n guojie(zhao's bf). but fer couldnt make it so me n zhao decided to change plan go fly kite at marina barrage. we meet at 1 at bishan to buy ingredients to cook for our food for pinic damn cool n nice k. (: den after tat guojie drove to my hse to fetch us to marina barrage. vern was the PR. he almost introduce all my family members to him sia.wth~~~ but luckily vern like him la.. played wid him. den we took lots of foto there. den went to amk hub. i treat them eat dessert. actually went there to watch ice age 3D de. but sold out. SUN. meet zhao n guojie watch 3D ice age wid vern. FOR VERN, i watch tat show twice..=.= . okay. after tat guojie drove us home again.(big THANK YOU). vern slept on sofa while i use lappy, n pat came over my hse.. she oso slept on sofa. hahahhaha. den after tat talk awhile den when my parents came back, me n her head off to bishan to meet sweehao, yuesheng n weijian for dinner at pastamania to celebrate sweehao's bday. me zhao n pat bought a mask to give him.HAHA. hope he like it. haha.den we walk walk abit accompany go buy hse phone..den went coffee beans sat down. hm..den bus-ed home. love is in the air, i saw it, i immediately took my hp out n took it down.

wat's love? love is, when u are feeling down, he is always there. wat's love? love is, when u are lost, he always find u usin his own ways. wat's love? love is, when u need a hug, u can jus turn around, he'll be there. wat's love? love is, when u need someone to lean on, u know u can turn to ur left n lie down. wat's love? love is, when u wan someone to listen n u don know who to turn to, he is there for u. wat's love? love is, when u love him n he love u as much. wat's love? baby,there's no need to ask anymore,cos you're the love, my one n only love.

sage

2009-07-01T23:39:00.004+08:00

hm, fer drew tis..(: i miss her too..